Great Is His Faithfulness..
August 31, 2006
Out of the depths of desperation, rising from the ashes, arrives faith”
There have been times in my life where I wanted to walk away, everything seemed as if it were lost. Depression and desperation had entered my heart and I honestly didnt know how to find my way out of their grasp. I beckoned with God, I bargained with him on an almost daily basis- Yet I still felt as if it was all lost.
Depression has a way of wrapping its talons around your throat, while satan whispers lies in your ear. It steals your joy, it numbs your soul, it robs your family and friends of the person that they love and care about. It leaves you emtpy. I have suffered from depression for 5 years now. Ive always been leary to admit that, because for some time, it made me feel weak- and less of a chrsitian because “Christians should never feel hopeless”. Isnt it funny the lies that the enemy throws at us when we are down! If you read the bible cover to cover, you will see that there are many examples of people who felt that it was all lost. Psalms itself is a perfect example of crying out to the Lord. Listen to the sorrow in David as he cries out to God:
My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?
Why so far from my call for help, from my cries of anguish?
My God, I call by day, but you do not answer;
by night, but I have no relief. -Psalms 22:2-3
Even in his darkest moments, he cried out to his God. Gods timing and our expectations are almost always on diffrent calendars. Davids love for his God was unmistakable, yet he too felt as if God had abandoned him. Why, if the bible shows so many examples of believers crying out, broken hearted (a better description would be depressed) do we feel as if we cant be just as honest and open with our hearts hurts? Why do we feel as if depression/sadness/weakness/ is equal to a lack of faith? If we never experience those feelings, we would have no reason to cry out to Christ- Our need for Him would be pretty much eliminated. Our lives would be content.
My struggles with depression are part of my makeup. They do not define me, but they are part of me. Just as my daughters illness’ do not define her, but they are part of her. God knew what he was doing when he put these aspects of my life together, He had a perfect plan. Now dont get me wrong, I am not saying that we should wollow in our heartache, but I am saying that it was placed in our lives for a reason… for His purpose.
Every step unforeseen by human eyes is a heavenly relationship you are developing with your Heavenly Father.
My family walks through our trials with the fortitude of a lion, but the heart of a lamb. I am open about where I am in my relationship with Christ because I am so very disgusted with the constant assumption that Christians should not ever show weakness.
He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
Most gladly therefore I will rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest on me.
Therefore I take pleasure in weaknesses, in injuries, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake.
For when I am weak, then am I strong.
My weakness is honesty. He delights in our honesty. He longs for our honesty. He longs for a relationship that honors Him, and includes Him.
His love for me is all consuming. I read this while having my quiet time, and I wanted to share it with you. If you ever doubt your saviors presence in your life, or your current situations- write this down and tape it all over your house.
I deserved the cross, I didn’t expect forgiveness.
I deserved shame, I couldn’t believe His mercy and grace.
I deserved the vast wilderness, and was amazed at His tenderness.
I deserved my troubles, I found unfailing love.
I deserved shackles, and He released the chains.
Seek Him, with true honesty and openness - He loves to be sought after and you will find Him with arms open wide.
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11 Responses to “Great Is His Faithfulness..”
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i stumbled across your site about a month ago and have been reading ever since. i am a sahm of four kids, two of which are 3 year old twin girls that both have their own disabilities.
oh how this post of yours resonates in my soul. God is truly using you and this site! may He bless you greatly! thank you for allowing your story and the story of your family to be used by Him.
in Christ,
twinmama2711
AWESOME POST as usual Sis! You speak the words that are in my heart! Thank you!
I wish I had your writing abilities!
This post is a keeper! I am printing it out and putting it in my Bible!
My blogging friend, your words speak truth! As Christians, we are not guaranteed a struggle free life. Our Christian example is not set by our problem free living–it is how we walk through our struggles that reflects our faith. While we are covered with His righteousness….we are not righteous! Well–I know I’m treading on theological differences here–I believe that abundant living is not represented by problem free living…it is modeled by leaning on the One who provided the abundance!
May you feel his strength, his peace, and his love for you and yours this day! May you know, you are not in this struggle alone–He is faithfully walking with you through it all. And may you know–how much VICTORY you are sharing, even before the struggle is over….with every word of your post–I hear your faith shouting: He is my victory!
You are a gifted writer–more than that–your willingness to use your pain for His glory….is outstanding!
God Bless!
Diane
What an encouraging post, Heather. Thank you so much.
P.S……
I’ve linked you today–didn’t want to selfishly keep your post in, only, my Bible….wanted to share it with other readers too.
Diane
Diane sent us here today. I have visited before and read of your struggles with little Emma. What a sweetheart! So many struggle with depression. I will forward this to my daughter as well. Keep on keeping on, as the old saints used to say!
I read your blog several times a week, but have never commented. As a 30 something sahm with three children under the age of three, and one that is a 4 month old with disablilities, this touches my heart. Yes, there are days that are tough, but you will see it to the end! Just dig down deep! You have such amazing courage. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for your complete honesty! Sincerely, Gwen
Heather - what a beautiful post. Thank you so much for sharing. Psalms is indeed a wonderful reminder that God’s people cried out to Him. He is there to even in our weakness, He makes us strong.
Prayin for you, sweet sister in faith.
I don’t even know what to say.
Beautiful, Heather.
It’s hard for me to be honest with God sometimes - and just typing that makes me laugh, because who do I think I’m fooling? Do I think He doesn’t know? That He doesn’t see?
In our weakness, He is strong. I needed to remember that today.
Linked over from boomama’s. That was a beautiful post! God knows us inside out, doesn’t He? And the part I find amazing is that He absolutely loves us where we are at. What an encouragement this post was to cry out to Him!
This is a lovely! Thanks for sharing it.