Today has been a weight lifting experience for me. Emma and I visited a school that she will most likely be attending (with the help of an attorney, if needed). I cant tell you the joy on my little girls face when she walked into the room. There were 4 other children, all autistic playing. Emma looked up at me and said “Emma go to school now, Bye bye”. And walked off without skipping a beat. My heart sank and soared at the same moment.

I loved the teachers there, they were so very intune with her needs. There was alot of one on one (2:1 teacher student ratio) and the therapists were amazing. I could have left her there and not had a second thought of how she would have been treated. It was a great feeling.

Tomorrow we have our Social Evaluation, Vision and Hearing tests, and Pscyhodevelopmental testing. I then have to do another visit to the school I am dead set against her going to, which I am not looking forward to doing. Next Thursday is her IEP/Placement meeting which I am more than prepared for. I dont think it will be an “us/them” scenerio, but preparation is paramount. I adore my parent liason, who has been a wonderful support.

I apologize for not updating regularly, things have been crazy here. Im really okay with the diagnosis now, as weird as that seems. I dont want Emma to go through life ashamed of who she is, or how God made her. I dont want her to feel as if she is different- I want her to have a life full of love and growth. I want her to experience everything there is for her. I want her opportunities and abilities to be embraced and nurtured. I want her to be the Emma God created her to be.

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