A new year begins shortly. Over the holidays I spent quite a bit of time reflecting on what I wanted for the new year. Last year started with much heartache, sitting in ICU having doctor after doctor telling us our daughters heart was failing again. I remember sitting in the little chapel on the first floor of Shands Hospital-new years day, praying that God would give us another year. A year ago today, I honestly had lost hope, and that is a feeling I will never forget.

As I reflect on the past year, there are so many emotions. Emma fought back from heart failure, but also added on hefty medication regimend to her daily life. She started school, which in itself is a miracle of huge proportions. She called me mom for the first time, at 5 years old. She went from weekly transplant follow up appointments to going every 2 months, again a huge step. She lost her nubby- a g-tube she has had her entire life, which now means that there is nothing “man made” in her body- she is living on her own for the first time, equiptment free. She was diagnosed with Autism, which honestly was so hard on our family- but Emma Grace pushed through the label and continues to grow and develop despite her limitations.

She is still here.

What do I want for 2007. Honestly, I just want another year. Another year with this precious child who has taught me so much about life, love and endurance. Another year of Barney, and Little People. Another year of 15 medications 3 times a day and trips to Gainesville to see a slew of specialist. Another year of pediasure and glucose testing. Another year of IEP meetings and 30 minute drives to school.

Another year of life.

So let God work his will in you. Yell a loud no to the Devil and watch him scamper. Say a quiet yes to God and he’ll be there in no time. Quit dabbling in sin. Purify your inner life. Quit playing the field. Hit bottom, and cry your eyes out. The fun and games are over. Get serious, really serious. Get down on your knees before the Master; it’s the only way you’ll get on your feet.
James 4:6-8

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