~ Liz Curtis Higgs ~
When I saw todays quote, I knew that I needed to do this weeks CWO Meme. I have written many times about being placed firmly in the hands of Christ- and I strongly believe that his hands are more than capable to hold us through anything we face, my 5 year old daughters testimony is proof of that. Below is one of my favorite posts regarding this topic- I have shared it many times, yet when I read todays quote, it resonated again with me Please watch the video before reading my post:
I believe strongly that as humans we are owed nothing. This has played a pivitol role in my coping with my daughters illness. Thru out the years we have been told so many things by other believers. That God would heal her if our faith was strong enough, that if we prayed hard enough and put the oil on her for head â€œjust soâ€â€¦ If we walked under banners or laid hands on her.. God will heal her.
For along time, I battled with that. I battled with my faith and my â€œwillâ€ regarding what was best for her. I couldn’t fathom that Christ would take this child from me, from her father and siblings. I couldnt fathom that loving caring savior would take my child away from me. So I began to reason with Him. If he would heal her, I would do x. In the end, here we are.
I realize now that there doesn’t have to be a big miracle for this to have meaning. He doesnt have to heal her to give her beautiful life meaning.
I can expect it all I want toâ€¦ it wont make it happen.
My father told me a few years ago, when I was really struggling with the reality of her disease:
â€œHeather, we all must dieâ€¦ there is no getting out of that. Emma will be healed, it just may not be on this side of heaven.â€
Now, being a few more years out of the initial diagnosis I have grown quite a bit. I have realized that in the end, none of us â€œdeserveâ€ the grace we have been given. We can expect it, but it was never promised to us.
I dont doubt that my savior loves my daughter even more than I do. I dont doubt that her precious life has huge meaning, and that He is fully aware of what the future holds for her. It is hard for me to give up those reigns sometimes. It is hard to fully put her into His hands, but honestly, that is where she is safestâ€¦ and when he decides to keep her there permanently, He will grant me the grace to deal with the heartache.
Ive been listening to our Christian station today while working around the houseâ€¦. and this song came on the radioâ€¦ I sat and cried and realized that the only thing that any of us are promised is that He will never leave us. Everything else is a gift.
We always expect things to go as we planned themâ€¦ and Christ already has it planned out and is willing to hold us thru the heartacheâ€¦
I’m thankful for that.
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