God, my God, let Mercy sing
Her melody over me
God, right here all I bring
Is all of me
Its amazing how much music touches my life. I find myself searching out new worship songs and listening to them over and over. Some of my favorite artist include Chris Tomlin, Bebo Norman, Rita Springer. This morning, as I have my morning devotional, I find myself singing Bebo Normans song “I will lift my eyes”. The words are so very powerful, and right now so poignant in my life.
Sometimes it is so hard for me to hand over the reigns in certain areas in my life. Its hard for me to put my pride away and realize that I am so meaningless without my Savior. Its also easy to place my “meaning” in meaningless things, my ego and hautiness are my worst enemy many times.
The reality of my life? I am nothing without my savior. There are area’s in my past where I could have made better decisions- I could have chosen to word an email differently, or spoken to a situation with kinder words, we’ve all made those mistakes. The one promise I hold onto is that He forgives the guilt of my sin. He knows my heart- and He loves that heart, cobwebs and all.
Mans Mercy, forgiveness and favor are wonderful to experience, but they are not what I seek. I seek an intimate, amazing relationship with the one being who knows my heart better than I know myself. He holds my past mistakes in the palm of his hands and he throws them as far as the east is to the west. I never have to be concerned with where he stands- He stands right next to me- sometimes as a proud father, others as a stern disciplinarian- But Always as a lover of my soul.
His approval is my heart’s cry. His favor is my ultimate goal.
I long to hear Him say to me “Well done, my good and faithful servant”
Coming from anyone else, despite the joy it might bring to me, the words are surface.
He is my hearts desire.