What I know so far..

I have a tumor in my brain. I don’t know what part, or where it is located. I dont know what grade the tumor is. When the nurse called me to tell me about it, her words were short. She told me that the Radiologist had found a tumor that is indicative of a glioma That was all she would tell me other than she had scheduled an appointment with a neurosurgeon for Thursday morning at 8:30 am.

I don’t really know what to say, or how to formulate my words- other than I am just really scared, and really …. scared.

Luckily I was at my parents house when they called, so I wasn’t alone. Mark came home immediately and is now on the phone with his family- so pray for him too, he is really struggling with this right now.

Like every other event in our lives, I trust that God has a plan for this- I trust Him. I have seen Him do miraculous things in our family, and know that, despite the outcome of this current situation, he is sovereign and His love for me is far more reaching than I can ever understand. I know that I am not alone…

Thats all I know.

Specific things to pray for at this moment:
1. My daughter, who was there when the doctor called. She has already experienced so much through Emma’s health, please pray protection over her precious heart.

2. My husband. He hasnt stopped crying.

3. The spinning- I think I could handle this alot better if things would stop moving.

4. For me. For my heart to not be angry or bitter. For me to not second guess the path that is ahead of me. For me to be real in all of this, and not portray strength where there is none.

I know that glioma is cancer. I know that it is treated with neurosurgery to remove the tumor, and radiation and chemo.

I know that I am scared completely out of my mind right now, for me- my family- but mostly my precious children. The things that go through your head when you are told something like this will bring a mother to her knees. I dont want to miss out on their lives.

I also know that I serve an amazing God who is the master physician- and I trust his perfect hands.

Pray hard Thursday Morning at 8:30 am..

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  1. Heather…covering your family in prayer. Will be praying specifically for the points you outlined and trusting in Him in the details.

  2. praying for you and your family!

  3. We are praying for healing and peace for you and your family. I am so sorry.

  4. Girl! I am lifting you up to the Father with all the faith I can muster. He will be glorified, so stand strong in that.

  5. “He rescues me when my ship is tossed at sea. He rescues me when my mountain’s too high to see. And when my valley is hot and dry – I can’t find a place to hide. Jesus comes and He rescues me.” – Kyla Rowland

    “Impending storm just ahead. I can see the darkened clouds. There’s no way around it. There is no way out. There was danger all around me. Surely I would drown. Til the force of His presence made the waves to lay down.

    He walked out on the water. Facing the wind. How it roared and it thundered til He raised His hand. Then the waves that were raging were suddenly calm. When He stepped between me and the storm.” – Kyla Rowland

    Praying that He will step out onto your sea and speak peace to the waves that are tossing your ship. May the “force of His presence” be with you, your family, and your physicians during this storm.

    Much love and many prayers.

  6. Praying for you, your husband, and your precious children.

  7. Shalom, Heather!

    I have a friend who had a tumor in the parietal lobe that was cancerous. She is still alive and in apparent remission, despite dire predictions. The miracles of modern medicine are many!

    May the Source of Strength who blessed our mothers and fathers bless you also with healing and bring a complete healing to you and your family.

    Our thoughts are with you and we have added you to our healing prayer list every morning.

  8. Heather, I will be praying for you each day.
    Love, Rebecca B. in Ohio

  9. I came over via BooMama. I’m praying, Heather!

  10. Heather, I’m praying for you and your family too….that you would find comfort and peace,
    even in the midst of this trial.

  11. My heart goes out to you and your family. Y’all will be in my prayers each and every day. (((Hugs)))

  12. You are in our prayers, and we will continue to keep you held up.

    Ali

  13. Praying so hard for you right now, and will continue to do so!

  14. Oh Heather I am so sorry this is happening. My heart aches for you and your precious family. Our daughter was diagnosed last February with Papillary Thyroid Cancer at the age of 9. We are still fighting this cancer and it sucks.

    When we found out my husband posted about it on my blog and so many people reached out to us and it helped SO MUCH! The prayers and love that we received was overwhelming and still is. Even though no one has ever said any magic words to make the cancer and the heart ache go away their comments and continued prayers and encouragement helped and do help immensely and will forever be unforgettable.

    So that’s why I’m writing you to let you know you have another sister praying for you and your family lifting you up to the Father.

    *huge cyber hugs*

  15. I am praying for you and your family.

  16. Oh Heather I had no idea of all that you and your family had all been through. Today is the first time I have been to your blog, I think (you look familiar), and read about Emma. I am speechless and I just don’t know what to say. You are one amazing AMAZING woman and you totally inspire me. Thank you so much for so beautifully writing your story about Emma. She is so blessed to have a Mommy like you fighting for her life the way that you have, it’s just admirable.

    I’m praying hard for you guys.

  17. I pray that God lifts you up during these days. That He draws nearer to your than He has ever been. I pray that your husbands heart will be healed and filled with love instead of grief that God too may rest His presence upon him and your daughter. That hope may be placed into your lifes. The plans that He has for you are for good, not evil, so that you may have hope in your final outcome. That in your hearts you may know that the Lord is your sheperd and that you shall not want. That God loves you more than the human could imagine or understand, and that He keeps you. That the truest beauty and love may pour and overflow through your heart as He restores you and manifest His promises according to His will and that you may know that when the sun rises up in the morening God is good. He for you and not against you, and that He will lift yourself up and be merciful towards you and your family. That Love never fails and that God is Love. That You may know Him and receive and know him deeply. That you all may know that you are stronger then you think and that you will prosper in live, no matter what happens and what you go through. Also know that Jesus who died for you knows your pain as He lives inside. You are not your physical body alone and that your soul will rise above the occassion and that the Lord Himself will watch over your life. You do not have to fear or worry as He draws nearer to you. And that you may always share and express all that you endure and feel inside in pure honesty. That you may love and receive love in the deepest your heart and that you may life forever. That no weapon formed against you shall prosper and that you may be healed by Jesus’ stripes. In Jesus’ name amen.

  18. Praying for you and your family.

  19. I know that I don’t know you however, I am praying for you just as if I do. I read about this at BooMama’s site and when I linked over and read your heading I thought ” how fitting”. There you are in this place of worship drinking in his glory and strength. Let the rain of his love fall hard upon you.

    Praying for you & your family

    Debra

  20. I’m so so very sorry to hear this Heather. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May God Himself be your peace.

    A family friend of ours is about 7 or 8 months into her battle with a cancerous brain tumor. Perhaps her blog (started by her husband when this started for her) will be of some comfort or encouragement to you.
    http://www.welovekaren.blogspot.com/

    Grace and peace be yours in abundance as you wait on him.
    Nan

  21. Hi,

    I came here from DCRMom’s website. I’m praying for you and your family.

  22. I read all of this with these words from Gateway to Joy this morning whispering close: “God has no problems,” Corrie ten Boom said, “only plans.” When ours are interrupted, His are not.

    Let’s hold on–no problems–only plans!

    Whispering to Father for you all this evening…
    All’s Grace,
    Ann

  23. Found you via Musings of a Housewife. You are in my prayers, darlin. Please take care.

  24. It is storming(lightning and thunder) all around me but I am in my safe place(my house) and can not be unsettled unless I allow it. You too are in the safety of the Lord God. Your walls and roof are the fervent prayers of your new found sisters. You can not be unsettled by this unless you allow it. Be strong and trust in the Lord for all good. He is merciful. Be Blessed today.

  25. Heather,

    I know you must be scared to death, but God has you wrapped tight in the palm of His hand. We are praying and will not stop until you are healed. He is a big God. Just ask me. My mother had a brain tumor and she is alive and well after walking through the fire! Praise God because He is with you!

    Hallie

  26. I am very sorry to hear this. You and your family will be in my thoughts.

  27. Praying for you and each one of your requests. May the peace of Christ fill you and your family fully and spill out on all who know and love you.

    Love in Jesus,
    Holly Smith
    Monument, CO

  28. Came here through the Wittingshire blog. Have prayed for you.

  29. Cindy A. says:

    I’m praying for you and your family.

    Round Rock, TX

  30. Heather, I read your blog all the time and I am shocked. I will be praying.

  31. Heather… I do not know you, but came across this website. I will pray for you and your family. I went through a very similar issue, and because of God’s grace I am here now to speak of it. You will have a lot of tough decisions to make regarding your treatment, and it will be very scary and overwhelming. Please, please contact me if you need to talk or need any information (amyk22@comcast.net). I had a grade 3 glioma, brain surgery, and a year of chemo. There are many things I can tell you that I learned from my research and my treatment, one of which was key in my recovery. God bless you!!

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