That has been the ongoing conversation had between myself, boomama, and kelli. $14,542.44
SHUT UP!
Im amazed, in awe and completely humbled. Short of stating Thank you over and over and over and over (and causing you to never return to my blog due to the ridiculous repetition) I will state again, You have blessed us beyond comprehension. My husband and have sat here most of the night just looking at each other and shaking our heads- usually with tears flowing in the process. Unbelievable. We will never be able to say thank you to each and everyone of you who have and continue to participate in this. Never.
Thank You.
So, tomorrow (Friday) I go for my second opinion. Mark asked me today if I was scared- and honestly I am. I am scared that the news is going to be the same, although in some ways I have prepared myself for that. Its weird how your body and mind just go into “coping mode”. It’s like I know what I have, so now lets move forward and do what we need to do.
But what do you do when you cant do anything? That is what scares me.
I am holding out for Mayo. I truly believe that if anyone can get this thing out of my head, they can. And if they cant, they will walk me through the process that will follow.
Physically, I am overwhelmed and exhausted. My appointment is at 4pm tomorrow (we will have to leave at 1:30) so I am hoping to just rest until we leave. Easton is staying the night at Laura’s with her best friend. Elijah will be at my parents, and Emma will be in school.
It will just be me, for the first time since the diagnosis.
I really hope to just sleep. Odds are that wont happen, but that is what I am hoping for.
So, please keep us lifted up tomorrow- how wonderful would it be to come back with absolutely amazing news! Either way- God is already touching lives left and right!
These are but the outer fringe of his works,
how faint the whisper we hear of him!
Who can understand the thunder of his power?”
-Job 26:14
I think the thunder of His power has resonated throughout the blogging community (and further), wouldn’t ya say?!
Blessings. Praying that you’ll be able to sleep. I’ll be with you in prayer at 4, too.
AMEN!! ((hugs))
Praying for you. I think Jesus showed an example of feeding the five thousand. Give a little, and he makes it huge. Praise God!!
You will be in my prayers throughout the day tomorrow sweet Heather…
~L in MI
Hey you –
I’ll be around all day, so IF you can, call. If you just need to rest before you and Mark take off, then don’t
Ya know I love ya. I’ll start praying at 10:30 (my time).
(However, I do require a call *afterwards* with news. Any news. Even if it’s Saturday
) I’m pushy that way.
Oh yeah- Love ya!
Praying for rest for you tomorrow!
Loved the song in the previous post too – thanks!
We’ll all be praying!
We will be praying throughout the day for you tomorrow Heather.
Saying an extra prayer for you tonight, Heather, and will be keeping you in my prayers for tomorrow, too. God bless!!
I’m praying for peaceful sleep and His presence to surround you throughout the day.
Emmanuel.
You said in your post that for the first time since the diagnosis that it will be just you. Haven’t you learned anything, you are not going to the doctor alone, you will be taking all of us with you, by way of thoughts and prayers. We will all be praying for you and your family.
Heather, you are in my continued prayers – and why this does not have anything to do with cancer it’s something that reminded me to believe -
Just 2 months ago, my x and I went to court to “fight” for custody of our only daughter together. Aubrey’s father had moved 2 hours away from where we live here, and Aubrey was being transported that far 3 days a week for school.
We both felt she could not continue doing it, but did not agree who should “keep” her during the week.
The weeks up to the court date, were so scary – HOURS AND HOURS spent at the lawyers office preparing, talking, working on paperwork – HOURS AND HOURS Of tears and fears.
However, that morning, before we left – I gathered my family around me, and TOLD them – that I had a vision, one that I would not “put down” or vier away from NO matter what happened inside the court house!
In that vision, I was hugging my lawyer and thanking him for doing ALL he could, we had “won” custody!
Well, during the day things were not going in “our direction” from what my lawyer told me, he said when we broke before the judge told us the verdict that we had lost…but I did not falter – I held my vision – and in the end I did “win” – I got custody of Aubrey…We both did, Aubrey sees her father, step mom and there other children weekly (just on weekends).
I truly believe in the power of positive thinking, there were so many doubts, and scary moments – but in the end it worked out for me!
Stay focused, and know that your loved, and being lifted in prayer every day!
Praying for you, your kids and hubby.
For some reason the song Amazing Grace kept going through my mind tonight as I read your post.
God’s grace is truly amazing in our lives.
May God continue to guide you and hubby as you walk this difficult road together.
Heather, we are the ones that receive the blessing because of your incredible faith. You have touched many people and the gift was just an outpouring of those you’ve touched.
I am praying for you to get some rest and that the Lord will comfort your heart and mind.
You are not ever alone…don’t ever forget that. His eye is on the sparrow…so how much more does He WATCH OVER you!
Love and prayers!
I am trying to understand between the “we” are leaving and the “It will be just me” Iam assumng your are talking about sleeping tonight, alone. (even though your shadows remind you , you are not alone
You may consider takimg a tape recorder. It will help you digest what is said to you. You can disect it when you are alone with Mark.
Praying the Comforter blankets you with Love tonight as you sleep in perfect peace.
Psalm 4:6-8
6 Many people ask, “Who will give us anything good?” Lord, be kind to us. 7 But you have made me very happy, happier than they are, even with all their grain and new wine. 8 I go to bed and sleep in peace, because, Lord, only you keep me safe.
Sleep sweetly.
Because of Jesus, Bobbie
SHUT UP! This is an amazing show of God’s love and grace. We love ya and pray for ya and cry with ya and hope with ya and adore ya. Peaceful rest and a safe journey tomorrow.
Wow. God is truly amazing.
Praying for peaceful sleep tonight, good news tomorrow, and your continued sense of peace no matter what the circumstance.
Also sending huge hugs.
Love, michelle
Heather, I want to delurk to let you know that you have been in my prayers all week long. I will be covering you tomorrow as well. Go with God. And with all your sisters here in Blogland. We are with you.
You are an amazing woman, Heather. Just amazing.
Praying for you and your sweet family.
WOO HOO! God has got you right in the palm of His Great Big Mighty Hand and He’s not going to let you go… EVER!!
You faith and devotion are inspiring.
My fervent prayers are for you and your family.
We are lifting you up in prayer. The money raised is exciting, but is nothing compared to YOU… we want to hear the excitement of hearing the miracles that ARE taking place within you this very moment.
Steph
WOW!
God is good! Praying for you as you visit the doctor tomorrow. Praying for a good nights rest.
Blessings,
Amy Beth
Heather-
You are such an inspiration for us all. God has his hands on this and will take care of you. I have said many prayers for you and will continue to say more.
Praying for you, your precious kiddos, and your husband tomorrow.
Praying as you head off to your appointment tomorrow. You are making such an imprint on so many lives, Heather. I’m believing that God will use this for good and I’m praying and asking for His healing touch on you.
Blessings,
~Toni~
Our God is awesome! Continuing to pray for you, Heather. Hugs from us (can you feel the squeeze?)
!
It just hit me.
I know I didn’t give even a hundred dollars, (though I’d have loved to if I felt I could have), and looking at the figures that have been reached, it seems to me that there is a great group of lurkers, in addition to those who comment here. Maybe they’re shy, or maybe they just don’t feel a need to talk, yet they give what they have, prayers, money, whatever.
Feel surrounded. By your family, by your church, by the avid talkers, by the loving lurkers, by the great cloud of witnesses (Hebrews 12 : 1 – 3), by the unseen armies of God (– how many times did God step in for His Israel, to silence their enemies, that HIS Name would be honored?) and especially (and this alone is sufficient) by the mighty arms of God.
You have hedged me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is high, I cannot attain it. Psalm 139:5-6
Praying!
Yay! God Rocks! May He who neither slumbers nor sleeps give YOU a peaceful night of rest. Praying!
God is so good. Still thinking of you and praying for you.
Oh, Heather,
Thank you so much for sharing your story, His story. You’re really amazing. Prayers will be said for you tomorrow at 4. As we leave school for the weekend, we will pray.
Praying for precious sweet rest for you tomorrow! Praying for your appointment! Praying for your family! Praying for YOU!
I will be thinking of you. Lots of prayers annd hugs
Lord,
Touch Heather tonight, and surround her so that she can sleep. You know what she needs most – please give it to her. No matter what that means. We trust you, Jesus. No one and nothing else. You alone are God. Glorify yourself in Heather.
In Jesus’ name, AMEN.
Simply at a loss for words… just relishing in God’s Might Power and Love!!!!!!
Glory be to God!!!!
Remember this little prayer when you rest tomorrow…
I will lie down in peace
and sleep, for you alone,
O Lord, will keep me safe.
Psalm 4:8
**Lots of Hugs**
Deborah
Heather and family,
Our God is bigger than anything. He can and will strengthen you, comfort you, give you rest and assurance, and provide all that you need. You are a blessing to the great “blogdom” and an inspiration to us all. I will be praying for you!
In Christ,
Julie
Please PLEASE look over this website and call these doctors: http://www.prevmedgroup.com/index.php
They have successfully treated several people I know personally with cancer, using natural methods. They are amazing people! We will keep you and your family in your prayers.
I’m brand new to your story but anyone who has made it through everything you have can make it through this too. I’m in awe of your strength and perseverance. So I donated because I think nothing should stand in your way of beating this, not the cost of a plane ticket or a hotel room or anything. Sending lots of prayers as well.
We will be continuing to lift you up in prayer – especially today at 4PM.
SHUT UP!
AWESOME girlfriend!!!! OUR GOD ROCKS!!! Wow, just mind blowing news about the gifts of money POURING in…whahoo!
Praying for you today, your appt. praying that you will REST and have PEACE of mind today! May God the Father keep holding you up and may you feel His presence and His strength in new and amazing ways today. He IS the God of the impossible, the improbable…cling to Him girl with all your might! We’re with you all the way.
Love and prayers and BIG ((HUGS)) to you and your dear ones…
Oh my, I feel for you.
We’ve been through similar, though different circumstances, with our son (then 16) two years ago.
His life expectancy was somewhat similar to what you’ve described. Luckily with hours of learning that, I made the decision to ignore.
Just wondering…since you’re from the Orlando area and we’re not that far away…have you been to Tampa for a second opinion? There is a neurosurgeon here who is the best.
Praying for sleep, and peace.
Will be praying! *hugs*
Heather:
We will all be praying that God will give you peace about whatever occurs. I pray he gives you a night of rest. It is you who have blessed us.
Dana
Heather, I wish I could be there with you today, Know that You are in my thoughts and prayers!
He truely is amazing!! And I have Faith you will get through this. (I know I say that alot! LOL ) but I believe it!
((HUGS)) to you all!
Love you very much!
Continually praying for you! Especially today as you try to rest and then this afternoon for your appointment.
And then “Go God!!” It’s awesome! I am so glad you are in the blogging community, so that we can bless you with our prayers and gifts like this!
And then I agree with your sentiments on the collection: SHUT UP!
Several of my friends are praying for you, one of them had a brain tumor herself.
Anyhoo.
Standing with you, in Christ!!
Karla
Praying for you, especially today, for rest and your appointment.
I loved your last post about shadows and light. You are amazing, Heather. Thanks for sharing your heart and love for the Lord.
Dear Heather,
What an amazing blessing! Hopefully the $ raised will take off at least some of the burden of what you’re going through. I will be thinking and praying for you today while you’re at your 2nd opinion. I told my Dad about you and your family and he’s praying for you and I know he’ll ask his church to pray also. God is so good and every feeling, tear and prayer is known by Him. Jesus knows what you’re going through…imagine the weight of the world’s sin on Him as He hung there to die so that we might live eternally! His pain and suffering must have unimaginable. But He did it for you because He loves you and redeemed you! Best wishes to you always!!
Molly (:
Heather-your story has touched me greatly. My high school (I am a teacher) is raising money for teens with cancer – by wearing hats. I will be wearing one for you today!
Cyndee
Praying
I will be praying for you today Heather! God will supply all your needs! He is so good….all the time!