I have a tumor in my brain. I don’t know what part, or where it is located. I dont know what grade the tumor is. When the nurse called me to tell me about it, her words were short. She told me that the Radiologist had found a tumor that is indicative of a glioma That was all she would tell me other than she had scheduled an appointment with a neurosurgeon for Thursday morning at 8:30 am.
I don’t really know what to say, or how to formulate my words- other than I am just really scared, and really …. scared.
Luckily I was at my parents house when they called, so I wasn’t alone. Mark came home immediately and is now on the phone with his family- so pray for him too, he is really struggling with this right now.
Like every other event in our lives, I trust that God has a plan for this- I trust Him. I have seen Him do miraculous things in our family, and know that, despite the outcome of this current situation, he is sovereign and His love for me is far more reaching than I can ever understand. I know that I am not alone…
Thats all I know.
Specific things to pray for at this moment:
1. My daughter, who was there when the doctor called. She has already experienced so much through Emma’s health, please pray protection over her precious heart.
2. My husband. He hasnt stopped crying.
3. The spinning- I think I could handle this alot better if things would stop moving.
4. For me. For my heart to not be angry or bitter. For me to not second guess the path that is ahead of me. For me to be real in all of this, and not portray strength where there is none.
I know that glioma is cancer. I know that it is treated with neurosurgery to remove the tumor, and radiation and chemo.
I know that I am scared completely out of my mind right now, for me- my family- but mostly my precious children. The things that go through your head when you are told something like this will bring a mother to her knees. I dont want to miss out on their lives.
I also know that I serve an amazing God who is the master physician- and I trust his perfect hands.
Pray hard Thursday Morning at 8:30 am..