I have a tumor in my brain. I don’t know what part, or where it is located. I dont know what grade the tumor is. When the nurse called me to tell me about it, her words were short. She told me that the Radiologist had found a tumor that is indicative of a glioma That was all she would tell me other than she had scheduled an appointment with a neurosurgeon for Thursday morning at 8:30 am.
I don’t really know what to say, or how to formulate my words- other than I am just really scared, and really …. scared.
Luckily I was at my parents house when they called, so I wasn’t alone. Mark came home immediately and is now on the phone with his family- so pray for him too, he is really struggling with this right now.
Like every other event in our lives, I trust that God has a plan for this- I trust Him. I have seen Him do miraculous things in our family, and know that, despite the outcome of this current situation, he is sovereign and His love for me is far more reaching than I can ever understand. I know that I am not alone…
Thats all I know.
Specific things to pray for at this moment:
1. My daughter, who was there when the doctor called. She has already experienced so much through Emma’s health, please pray protection over her precious heart.
2. My husband. He hasnt stopped crying.
3. The spinning- I think I could handle this alot better if things would stop moving.
4. For me. For my heart to not be angry or bitter. For me to not second guess the path that is ahead of me. For me to be real in all of this, and not portray strength where there is none.
I know that glioma is cancer. I know that it is treated with neurosurgery to remove the tumor, and radiation and chemo.
I know that I am scared completely out of my mind right now, for me- my family- but mostly my precious children. The things that go through your head when you are told something like this will bring a mother to her knees. I dont want to miss out on their lives.
I also know that I serve an amazing God who is the master physician- and I trust his perfect hands.
Pray hard Thursday Morning at 8:30 am..
dcrmom says
April 10, 2007 at 9:51 pmPraying. Hard.
Rocks In My Dryer says
April 10, 2007 at 9:53 pmHere via BooMama, and praying with and for you.
Beth F. says
April 10, 2007 at 9:54 pmMy prayers and thoughts are with you and your entire family, Heather. I hope you can feel the love and strength surrounding you all.
Amy says
April 10, 2007 at 9:55 pmheard about you from my friend lundie, you and your family will be in our thoughts and prayers during this very trying time.
wishing you all of the love and healing in the world…
amy @ ladybug picnic
JennaG says
April 10, 2007 at 10:01 pmPraying
Theresa says
April 10, 2007 at 10:03 pmHere via Wendy (Showered with Grace) – praying and sending my love.
Emily says
April 10, 2007 at 10:16 pmWish there was more I could say or do, but I am praying 🙂
Amanda says
April 10, 2007 at 10:21 pmI just heard about this from BooMama. I’m so sorry! I will be praying for you and your family.
Nikki says
April 10, 2007 at 10:25 pmI have not left a comment here for a long time, but I read at Boomama’s about your diagnoses and I just had to come over here and support you and let you know I WILL pray for you and that I am awed and inspired by your honesty and trust in Christ. I know you give Him all the credit. And I believe He honors that. You have SO MUCH on your plate. And from what I see here, you handle it all with absolutely astounding, beautiful, and example-setting grace.
Joyful Days says
April 10, 2007 at 10:29 pmCame from Annie (My Life as Annie…). Offering prayer.
Julie
Alexis says
April 10, 2007 at 10:30 pmYou are in my thoughts and prayers.
Sprittibee says
April 10, 2007 at 10:34 pmWANT YOU TO READ WHAT I WROTE ON MY BLOG ABOUT YOU. Hope you won’t mind that I stole that lovely photo of you and your son. Still praying, sweetie.
http://sbees.blogspot.com/2007/04/perspective-on-homeschool-blog-awards.html
Dee Dee says
April 10, 2007 at 10:44 pmPraying for you, Dear!
Jodi says
April 10, 2007 at 10:45 pmYou are in my thoughts.
fully operational battle station says
April 10, 2007 at 10:48 pmHeather,
I don’t know you and normally don’t even pray. You have my prayers though.
This EXACT SAME THING just happened to my very young Uncle a couple years ago. I don’t know all the terms but his tumor was the spiderlegs kind instead of the golfball kind and apparantly the spiderlegs kind is a bit harder to remove.
He fully recovered. 100%
It happens. It can happen that way.
Stay AWAY from the negative/scary/sad internet reports. You don’t need that.
My thoughts are with you and your family,
Jamie
julie says
April 10, 2007 at 10:50 pmPraying fervently for you and your family.
Susanne says
April 10, 2007 at 10:51 pmI’m praying right now for you and yours, and I’ll continue to remember you in my prayers!
Sarah's in the Midst of It says
April 10, 2007 at 10:59 pmI wish I had better words to tell you how I’m feeling right now, the love and hope that I’m feeling for you, but I don’t really have anything other than to promise that I’m praying for you. And especially on Thursday. Hold tight, Heather.
Darlene (CWO) says
April 10, 2007 at 11:02 pmI’m praying Heather, and I received some messages this evening already from prayer warriors who are praying too. God is able!
Jesse says
April 10, 2007 at 11:07 pmI just want you to know that I will be praying for you and your family.
Lynne says
April 10, 2007 at 11:12 pmYou and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.
WaitingontheLord says
April 10, 2007 at 11:20 pmI don’t even know you, but I am lifting you up to our Heavenly Father tonight!
May you and your family feel His arms wrapped around you. May you know His love, His joy, His peace in all of this.
Tiany says
April 10, 2007 at 11:26 pmWe are praying for you and standing in faith for Gods hands to heal and make new! I know that you know anything is possible with our God! Praying for God to comfort and keep you and your precious family!
Hugs,
Tiany
grafted branch says
April 10, 2007 at 11:30 pmI’m scared for you, too. And I’m confidently praying for your faith and trust to be multiplied as you walk this path that’s been ordained for you! *heavy sigh*
Soooooo many incredible advances have been made in treating brain tumors since I watched my brother-in-law lose his fight 18 years ago; if he’d been diagnosed today, he’d more likely have survived.
Dr. Black in Los Angeles (UCLA Med Center, I think) is supposed to be one of the very best.
Big Mama says
April 10, 2007 at 11:31 pmHeather, I will be praying for you and your sweet family. God is holding you all in His hands.
weavermom says
April 10, 2007 at 11:46 pmThere are no words.
I found your site several weeks ago from dcrmoms. Just wanted to let you know that I’m praying for you! If God does not instantly heal you with one touch – May all the things you have learned from Emma Grace help you navigate the journey you seem to be beginning, and may God mightily sustain you.
Kristine says
April 10, 2007 at 11:48 pmHeather, One more person here praying for you and your family.
Jennifer Lopez says
April 10, 2007 at 11:49 pmHeather,
I will be praying for you. I’m not sure what more to write because I can not even begin to imagine what you are going through, but know that I will be praying for you. We serve an Awesome God and He will never leave you nor forsake you. Also, someone gave me this scripture the other day and now I want to share it with you:
“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6
Christina says
April 10, 2007 at 11:56 pmI know you don’t know me, but I want you to know you and your family will be in prayers.
Alex Harris says
April 11, 2007 at 12:08 amPraying for you and your family. May God bring peace and joy, even in this trial.
bubbebobbie says
April 11, 2007 at 12:11 amTiany Shared today on her blog what you are experiencing on your blog. I wanted to let you know that I am praying for you and your family. I have a Heather too. I do not know if you know it or not, but one of the meanings of Heather is “Joyful Spirit”.
Heavenly Father, I lift up this sweet sister in the Lord to you and to your plan for not only herself, but her family as well. Marriage is a gift that allows us to experience not only our own trials, but our spouse’s and childrens’trials as well. We are all connected and your plan is to bring us closer to you in everything we experience. I pray strength and wisdom for her beloved, tha he will know when to just hold Heather and not speak and whenshe will need his words of comfort and peace. Only You know the times and the differences in the two. I ask for mercy Lord o her behalf and on behalf of her children. Your grace is sufficent, but sometimes we need more than grace Lord, sometimes we need Mercy, we need miracles and we need Your limitless compassion. Heather is strong, she knows Your promises and on the days when “having done all,You find her standing, I pray You will surround her with those that are strong enough to hold up her arms just as Moses arms needed holding up in order for the Battle to be won.Everytime someone speaks her name, fill her spirit with great joy. You are a Mighty God, our Great Physcian. In Your care Heather is safe. Become the hands of her surgeons, give them wisdom beyond that of books and experience, super natural wisdom to care for Heather. May she hear words for hope and promise in every step she takes on this path, lighted by Your Word. In the Mighty name of Jesus that gives light in the darkness, amen
Faith is the substance of things hoped for….keep your hope up!
Because of Jesus, Bobbie
Toni says
April 11, 2007 at 12:29 amHeather,
I read of your diagnosis from another blogger sister over at Mayhem and Miracles. Please know that I will pray for you, your dh, children and extended support system as you walk through this valley together. I will pray for complete healing as I lift you up to the Father and trust you to His care. And for strength and courage for each and every small and large moment of the path before you.
Love in Christ,
~Toni~
Ashleigh says
April 11, 2007 at 12:38 amDear, precious Heather… I’ve been literally on my knees tonight, lifting you up to our powerful Heavenly Father. I’m just about speechless when it comes to leaving any sort of comment here, and all I can come up with to say is that I’m praying. You are being so completely covered in prayer by so many… the Lord is in control, and He is not slack concerning His promises. He will get you through this. Sending hugs…
YoungMommy says
April 11, 2007 at 12:41 amHeather~
You are in my prayers to the Lord of all, now, through Thursday and beyond. May the supernatural peace of Jesus fill you, your husband and your children!
(((Hugs)))
Michelle says
April 11, 2007 at 12:53 amHeather:
Praying for you, your husband, your children and all of your family. Our family will pray for the doctors, but most importantly we pray for peace in your hearts and for God’s healing to fill your body.
God bless,
Michelle
Jo says
April 11, 2007 at 1:27 amHang in there. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts. I know you have no clue who I am but if you ever want/need another mama with cancer to talk or vent to. I’m easy to find.
Hugz,
Jo
Jane says
April 11, 2007 at 1:48 amJust said a prayer for you and your family.
Janice (5 Minutes for Mom) says
April 11, 2007 at 1:50 amAbsolutely brutal Heather. I am so incredibly sorry that you all have to endure such agony.
Praying for sure!!!
TC says
April 11, 2007 at 2:04 amI’m a cancer patient. It IS scary. But God says He will be your strong tower, and you can count on that to be true.
Please go to http://www.desiringGod.org (John Piper’s site) and read his article, “Don’t Waste Your Cancer.” I printed out a copy so I can read it again when I focus more on my disease than on my Savior.
Soli Deo gloria.
Linds says
April 11, 2007 at 2:16 amI have just read the news, and I am praying too. I am walking to the grotto on the mountain today and have so many candles to light. Yours will be one of them. God is near. He is all powerful.
Urailak says
April 11, 2007 at 2:51 amYou and your family are in my prayers. God is in control. Rest in His grace and mercy!
Linsey says
April 11, 2007 at 3:13 amHeather,
I’m afraid you don’t know me either but I wanted to say how sorry I am about what has happened, but isn’t it a blessing when God’s people unite together in prayer? ‘God is our refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble’. Ps 46:10
Beverly Hernandez says
April 11, 2007 at 3:28 amJust wanted to let you know that I will be praying for you and your family.
Beverly
Dawn says
April 11, 2007 at 4:31 amHeather, I am so sorry for what you are going through. You have our prayers. God bless.
Irene says
April 11, 2007 at 5:01 amWishing you complete healing.Praying for you on Thursday and in all our prayers. Praying that all evil goes away and grace and God’s love shower you and yours. Amen.
liz says
April 11, 2007 at 5:08 amthinking of you and sending prayers up on your behalf.
~liz
Jodi says
April 11, 2007 at 5:10 amYou will be in my prayers!!
midlife mom says
April 11, 2007 at 6:57 amI’m here via Musingsofahousewife, dcrmom. Will be praying for the peace that is above all understanding for you and yours!
Jennifer, Snapshot says
April 11, 2007 at 7:32 amI’m praying, Heather. . . . What a blow. I don’t have to give you any of the Christian platitudes, because you know them, and stated them yourself. Hang in there.
Amy Beth says
April 11, 2007 at 7:35 amHeather,
I’ve recently came across your blog, and enjoy visiting. I am so sorry to hear about your brain tumor. But we serve a mighty God, who can heal! Lifting you up in prayer… as well as your family .
Please keep us posted.
Blessings,
Amy Beth