It Is Finished!!
July 19, 2007
Radiation, that is :)
(I swallowed my pride and posted this picture…)
As I close this chapter in my journey, I look back and realize that I need to change some things in my life. I think the thing that I realize most is I put too much pressure on myself in attempt to try to please people, and I just cant afford to do that, especially right now. Right now is the time to be selfish with my energy and I give myself permission to do that.
I read this on 38lemon:
Be selfish. Now is the time to take care of yourself. In a lot of ways, this will test your friendships. Will your friends understand your relative unavailability or not? Certain friendships may fall off because of this. Other friendships will be steadfast. Don’t be afraid of that dynamic.
Anyone who has had a life altering experience can relate to those words.
Thank you to all of you who commented on my last post, I, again, read every single one. It was so hard for me to hit the “publish” button, Laura can attest to that fact. But I am glad I did, I cried harder last night than I have since cancer entered my life, and that is okay, it is okay to feel all alone, as long as you don’t stay in that spot for too long.
See, I do have bad days! But even in my bad days, I realize I am so enormously blessed…
Now celebrate with me!! I am done with radiation!
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204 Responses to “It Is Finished!!”
I would love to hear from you!
yeah!
Praise God! You look great girl!!
I am so happy for you!
You look awesome! Congrats on being done!
I have to say you have a remarkable attitude and make me think twice about complaining about piddly things going on in my life. I hope and pray that should I ever encounter a life changing situation that I could show God’s glory in such a powerful way as you have and continue to do through your life. You completely bring Glory to God. I know he is smiling down on you and your complete and utter honesty before him and those around you. You lift Him high!
Congrats on being done. I know that is a huge thing to be proud of!
Woohoo! Heather you are BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!! Inside and out! Huge cyber hugs coming through this post! You are awesome girl! :-)
Girlfriend I have been praying praying for you and YOU have been such an inspiration as I have walked through doctors’ offices, MRIs, CATscans, bloodwork, etc, etc, etc for the past two months. When I was coming out of surgery in May and the surgeon asked how I was feeling - all I could think of is what you were going through, and I felt just fine. My Monday night Beth Moore group reads your blog, and prays for you daily. AND THEN - I read the update today, and there is a friend of mine sitting with you after the last radiation treatment. This is a small world that our God has us on - and it NEVER ceases to totally amaze me as to how HE connects those who love Him!! Go God!!!
Woo Hoo! I am so happy!
I say this to you all the time- You need to worry about yourself, not other people. I’m glad you’re listening!
Yeah…for you….
Oh, my gosh! What a ghastly contraption they have to put you in for that radiation! It looks very, very uncomfortable…..was it as bad for you as it looks like it was?
Please, dear Lord, let this be working for Heather. You are so gifted, Heather, at sharing your feelings, ups and downs, highs and lows. Thank you for that. If all we got were the positive feelings and sunny days, then it would certainly seem ‘pollyanna’…..and cancer is NOT fun, by any stretch.
What you are teaching all of your readers, is that if this were to happen to us (and something will; life does not go on for anyone forever), we CAN get through it. We can get through it, even if it makes us cry our hearts out. All through it, we are tough. The Holy Spirit is always there, on good days and bad to carry us. Even when it doesn’t feel like he’s there at all.
When I think of all the suffering there is in this world, it takes my breath away. The lasting unanswerable question for me is, why does our loving God allow us to suffer like this?
I guess we’ll learn the answer to that question when we get to heaven and get to ask all our questions face-to-face.
Anyway, thanks for sharing yourself with us. Love, peace, and blessings to you and your family.
Woohoo! I’m so happy for you!
Heather,
Love to see that smile on your face. Way to go girl!!
Missy
I am DEFINITELY celebrating with you today as you move past the final radiation session and onto wellness! I have every bit of faith that God is doing wonderful works in you and that He is sculpting you into a vessel better than the one that existed before!
I am so proud of you and although that probably doesn’t mean much coming from someone you don’t know, I can’t express enough how you have inspired me to fight my own good fight. I am proud of you, Heather, for your fortitude, your faith (however wavering it may be at times), and your fists of fury that fight this cancer with all you have!
Hugs and continued prayers…
You just make sure you keep this up, girl! Rest well. Take your time. ((hugs))
Praise the Lord Heather! And I don’t think you’d look just as pretty bald!
Hooray and Praise the Lord! You looked great!
WooHoo! No more Radiation!
HUGS and Kisses Sis!
Congratulations, Heather. You’d be surprised how gracefully all of us think you got through this ordeal. Your honesty about your feelings has been a breath of fresh air.
And you look wonderful - that wig is stinkin’ cute on you!
DOIN’ THE HAPPY DANCE HERE!
Celebrating with you, praying for you, loving you…
Rest in Him.
He is Emmanuel.
I am loving that smile on your face! WOOOHOOO! Praise God
Celebrating with you! Praise you Lord!
I have written this before, but it bears repeating…every time you cry, especially those hard times, it washes away the fear and anger and strengthens you to walk on ahead….following the footsteps of Jesus. You are a blessing–good days or bad :)
Love you much in Him,
holly
YAY!!!!!
I’m sending you a BIG BIG HUG!!! Can you FEEEEEEL it??!?!?
Weeping and now REJOICING with you!!!
Thanks for teaching me so much about life and trusting in God - for being willing to share your journey online. May your story continue to bless people and offer them hope in Christ.
Love you lots!
Your Moms-of-Grace pal,
Sarah Joy Albrecht =)
YES! YES! YES! I have been waiting for you to post this. One mountain climbed and I bet the view is sweet. Oh, so sweet.
Heather, I would be so much more worried if you DIDN’T take the time to cry, be angry, and afraid. These are cleansing, healing feelings for you right now.
Haven’t I read before on your blog where you tell us that your God is a very big God? So go ahead, He can take it.
And He’ll be there to comfort you and love you when you are done.
And Heather, you are never really alone. Ever.
He is indeed Worthy!
You go girl!!! So proud of you!! Thanks for the honesty and sharing the pictures!! May God be given all the glory in your testimony through all of this. Your faith has carried you so far and your posts have done so much for all of us!!
He ALONE is Worthy!!
PRAISE AND HALLELUJAH!!!!! : ) Thanks for sharing the ups AND downs with us. You are so transparent and what I see in you is Jesus.
Wonderful!!
Hooray for you! Make sure you rest up. :)
Congrats Heather! I am so happy for you!
May God continue to bless you!
Praising Him with you! AMEN
~TaunaLen
Thought this was worth posting a second time… :)
Oh gently lay your head upon My chest
And I will comfort you like a mother while you rest.
The tide can change so fast,
but I will stay
the same through past, the same in future, same today.
Oh weary, tired and worn
let out your sighs
and drop that heavy load you hold.
Mine is light.
I am near.
I know you through and through
there’s no need to hide.
I want to show you love that deep and high and wide.
For I am constant.
I am near.
I am peace that shatters all your secret fears.
I am holy.
I am wise.
I’m the only One, who know your heart’s desires.
Oh gently lay your head upon my chest
and I will comfort you like a mother
while you rest.
Jill Phillips, “I am”
Isn’t that what Jesus said, “It is finished!” I think it’s the CANCER that is finished, not just the radiation!
I’m celebrating with you!!
Congrats on finishing radiation. I may not blog on all your stuff, but I am reading. You are such an inspiration to me.
I’m adding my thanks and praises! What a huge relief my friend.
Praise God! And you are such a beautiful person- I feel blessed myself to following with you in this journey.
“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Phil. 4:13
Woo Hoo Glory be to God! Hip hip Hooray!
Heather you are So beautiful!
What ever the Lord lays upon your heart to do, do that!
Including selfishly preotecting your health , your time, and your family.
Because of Jesus, Bobbie
Wonderful news! Just take one day at a time. Thank you for your thoughts, good and not so good. God will take care of you!
Praise the Lord. I know you are so happy to be done with radiation. You look amazing. I love your hair. Take this time to be selfish….you deserve it. Your true friends will be there for you through thick and thin.
Lots of love and hugs,
Mandy
GA
http://www.madelinegracehopkins.blogspot.com
All right!!! One part of the journey behind you. I think you are being very wise Heather. I don’t think any of us are intended to be all things to all people. Your reponsiblity right now is getting better - for you and for those who are most precious to you. A true friend will understand that with no problem.
I feel all teary…I am so proud of you. Your smile is just precious. Of course there are days filled with tears, but there are also days with smiles. And He is in every one of those days.
YAY! I know you are glad with this step. You are doing great. Be Selfish because you deserve to be.
Take yourself out for a night on the town - dinner, movie, ice cream - the whole thing.
I’m so glad that you can close this chapter - what a victory!
Praise God!!!
I am so excited for you and share in your moment, reaching this same point 10 years ago. I looked at your picture and I have to say, it brought my reality of that time back for a split second, then I heard the soft whisper inside my heart that said, “That was 10 years ago for you Laurel”. My heart rejoices with you and I only wish I had your blog back then. You are a true gift of God to all of us out here who read you daily Heather. I love your humanness and honesty. You need to receive as much as you give. If a few “friends” fall by the wayside along your next phase of healing and rest,
so be it. I lost a few, but quickly found out when I couldn’t give anything,
the ones who only want from you without giving of themselves in return by understanding, aren’t really deep rooted to you in spirit. The ones who love you will understand your need to rest now and not have to be
“ON” all the time for them. I think it is safe to say that we will take up some of the slack and be “ON” for you. And I am praying that every stinking cancer cell that was in your body has been “Fried to Hell”. Gone forever. I had mentioned that seven was the number of completion for the Lord. I am claiming this number for you since you had mentioned in
an earlier post that your life’s altering struggle of ups and downs had been about this long. I don’t ever like to see anyone suffer as you and so many others have, or the ones going through it now. I feel in good company to know that trusting the Lord in our circumstances doesn’t require us to float around playing harps and wearing halos. This is a human experience of life that bites bad, but the Lord is here to help carry the sting. If butterflies smile, it looks like your smile in your picture. Be Blessed and Rest Heather, for this is your time to heal.
~~Love and Hugs and Tons of WooHoo’s to you from California this sunset~~ Laurel
That is wonderful!! Thank you so much for sharing this very personal and painful chapter of your life with us.
Sue
“I feel in good company to know that trusting the Lord in our circumstances doesn’t require us to float around playing harps and wearing halos”
That made me laugh! Thanks for that :)
You go girl!!!! And as a total side note, did you know that nifty thing you get to wear on your head that straps you to the table is made right here where I live? Small world huh? ;) CONGRATULATIONS!!
dawnz:)
You look adorable! And you look strong and happy, which is such a blessing to see.
I’m so glad radiation is over for you! I think this journey is going to be much more “doable” now. Your strenght will come back, your counts will recover, and life will become your new “normal”. This is a great day!
I am so happy for you. It’s bittersweet when you finish your radiation. You find you miss the people you’ve been interacting with everyday. But at the same time you are so greatful and relieved to be done. I pray for your strength everyday and I will continue to do so. You have done awesome.
Praise God. I’m so excited for you. :)
JoAnn
Hi Heather,
As a nurse practitioner, we teach our patients to call themselves “cancer survivors”… because that is what you are!! The cancer has been surgically removed, chemically removed and radically removed. You have survived! You have made it! Cancer doesn’t have you because you have survived it! Think about it this way… you HAD cancer, but you don’t HAVE it now!
Blessings to you!
Leah in Indiana
Whoo hooo! Whoo hooo! I’m crying happy tears and I’d do a happy dance around my living room but my family is watching a movie. But I’m dancing on the inside. I know you are happier than all of us put together that you are done with this. You look so good. Praise the Lord!
I’m thrilled you’ve gotten through this radiation still with a smile on your face. You are an amazing woman. The Lord has wrapped his loving arms around you and I pray will continue to do so throughout this ordeal. You are such an inspiration to us all. Thank you, Heather.
Congratulations! I am sooo happy for you. Praise God!
(Still praying for you, though!)
Heather,
Congratulations! That is amazing accomplishment!
Breathe, just breathe!
Many Blessings,
Paula
awesome heather!!!
you are amazing…i love your honesty & i love how the lord has just drawn you close & given you such a wonderful gift of communicating “real” life to others.
so blessed to follow you & honored to pray for you.
xo
Wooo hooo! I’m jumpin’ and shoutin’ for ‘ya! :)
God is good!
Karen :)
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are so beautiful - thanks for being so honest and vulnerable. God is really working through you and your life to reach and teach SO many! I am so glad you are done with radiation! Sunshine
WOOHOO!!! YAHOO! AND you look GREAT! :)
Congratulations! And you look FABULOUS DAWLING!
You’re amazing! God is Amazing!
This is only my second post…I’m not great with words…but I read the blog every day!
My stomach is in my throat right now…I’m so excited the radiation is over!
Em
YEAH! I am so thankful! Praise God! Sister, I am so proud of you! :) I have a HUGE smile on my face!
WOOHOO!!! Ending treatment is a bittersweet thing. I remember being thrilled that chemo and needles were GONE but I was also scared to death that our being proactive time was done. It took time, but I eventually stopped worrying about cancer.
LIVE LIFE and don’t be afraid to be SELFISH!!!!! That is hard since we are moms and by nature caregivers and careTAKERS. Sometimes we just have to be selfish.
Hugs
Laurie
ps…you look stunning!!!
Congratulations Heather!!!!
I can’t imagine how excited you must be to put this step behind you! I am so very touched by your story and have shared your life with so many of my friends - just like you are a sister here in my own little town…
I too, share my entire everything with anyone I meet - and I must say it does make us vulnerable - but also very real. People never have to guess and play games to understand us - thank you for your authenticity - it means so much to see you - a christian women - revealing Jesus to so many - with your ups and downs… your doubts, your fears, and ALLL of your success… The day you posted about choosing to recognize the positives was a fighting day for me to - your comments were absolutely perfect for helping to choose JOY! Thank you - Thank you - Thank you for letting God use you - Thank you for being real - thank you for sharing you journey with me…
Sheila Walsh wrote a book called Life is Tough but God is Faithful… in it she address the fact that we are all living sacrifices - and we have a choice - we can let God use us or we can crawl off the altar… “In the Old Testament, a lamb was not consulted as to how it felt about being offered as a sacrifice. It was simply slaughtered and laid on the altar to be consumed by the fire. but in the New Testament - The New Covenant - we are living sacrifices. The trouble is, a living sacrifice can crawl off the altar when it gets too hot. God could have preprogrammed us as robots who serve Him without choice, but He has given us the ability to choose.” So - when the heat is turned up - be determided to be a sweet smelling sacrifice to God - (Eph. 5:2) “When the heat of problems and pain burns into our very souls, we can crawl away and hide when it gets too hot, or we can choose to be living sacrifices who stay on the altar for His sake.”
I absolutely love this book - am only half way thru - but it is such a great reminder and teaching of the truth we have in our savior and how this life isn’t about what we do - it’s about how we love! Your love is so abundant - thanks for sharing your love for Jesus with us - you are his reflection! God knows your heart - and that is more important than what anyone of us think! You Go GIRL! Hugs! Amanda
What a beautiful smile you have! I am glad you are done.
Congratulations!! You look amazing!
Glory to God - Glory to God - For God is MIGHTY - Mighty to SAVE!
Heather thank you for allowing God to reveal His Glory through you. Your honesty and continual reliance on Him has touched my life - really inspired me - and caused me to think deeply about whether or not I continually rely on Him. So I know that cancer really stinks - but you just never know how or when God is going to use you - isn’t He mysterious?!
I am so happy that you are finished with radiation - YAHOOOOO!!!!
Kindly, Tracy
‘Kay…tell me that the “Amy Grant” that signed your blog is the THE Amy Grant - only shares a name (?)…Second, when I read the title to your latest posting, the southern gospel song immediately came to mind: It is finished, the battle is over. It is finished, there’ll be no more war. It is finished, the end of the conflict. It is finished, and Jesus is Lord. You go, girl!
Congratulations on closing this part of your treatment Heather! Just seeing that thumbs up picture made my heart glad. how brave you are.
Praise God. I’m amazed at your awareness through this journey you are a wonderful testimony!
So, I had to share with you that your last post hit not only me, but my husband as well. The poem you shared (and were/are feeling) showed me that we all can be feeling something so real as those words… whether it be cancer, debt, loss… anything that is so overwhelming, it seeks to destroy the very hope, joy and strength you hold in the One who gives it freely. While I do not share in the complete understanding of the battle you fight with cancer, I have another battle and appreciate what you shared, knowing that we all have those moments of crying out… having no words… when all the knowledge of the One who was and is and shall be forever still doesn’t penetrate to the heart of the most desperate circumstance… when sometimes knowing He’s in the “hole” with you is the very thing you cling to… but when you look around… you still see a “hole”.
I am praying for you dear Heather… for your husband as he watches this struggle and for his strength as well as yours… May you feel everyone’s prayers this evening as we lift you… and may your hole not feel as deep.
Bless you… Bless you… Bless you!!! Definiately celebrating and rejoicing with you!!! Although, just so you know, I am continuing to pray!….
Oh sweet, sweet Jesus, one more step in your healing! I am crying happy for you, still praying for you and thinking of you often!
You are making a very wise decision. The energy it takes to just care for yourself and your family is all you need to focus on. God’s blessings to you.
Yay! Praise the Lord!!
Heather,
Let Jesus drip on you the honey of His love, relax, eat well and continue to spiritually replenish. Glad the radiation is done!
I really think that God has a special purpose that he will accomplish through you.
Loving you from Chilliwack
Those were cleansing tears Heather! YOU GO GIRL…I spent 32 years trying to please other people, Don’t waste your time anymore sweetie, you concentrate on you and your family and those that truely know and respect you will understand…I don’t even know you and I do! hehehee! Walking with you in AZ…Cathy
Steps to freedom! Thank you Jesus!
Heather, I read this somewhere and I found it very profound. My a-ha! moment, if you will.
You ARE a soul, You HAVE a body.
If that is indeed true. Your soul does not have cancer, just the body you live in. You just have to learn to co-exist OR kick it out!
Blessings!
One of my favorite songs is “You Are Beautiful” by Christina Aguilera . Here are the words and Heather, you are beautiful!!!!
Beautiful
by
Christina Aguilera
[Spoken]
Don’t look at me
Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it’s hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the fame, I’m so ashamed
I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can’t bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can’t bring me down
So don’t you bring me down today
To all your friends, you’re delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone and the puzzle undone
That’s the way it is
You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words won’t bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words won’t bring you down
Don’t you bring me down today…
No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
We’re the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes
And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine
(sun will always shine)
And tomorrow we might wake on the other side
All the other times
We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won’t bring us down
We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words can’t bring us down
Don’t you bring me down today
Don’t you bring me down today
Don’t you bring me down today
Way to go! Glad to see the smile on your face. Praise God for the strength to go this distance.
Heather
Alright, Heather! God has given you such bravery and strength in the midst of so much trial. Thanks for sharing your journey! Now, have a party with your kiddos and the rest of your family…you’ve reached a milestone!
Heather,
I read your blog daily, and am so glad that you are done with radiation. Your blog is amazing, and your life’s journey has been incredible. I can’t wait to read your story for years to come.
I have nominated you for a “Blogger’s Reflection Award.” If you would like to visit my site, my family has walked down that road less taken in many ways as well.
I pray for you daily,
Betsy
Yes, yes, I am celebrating with you!
Yea what a wonderful day. I know how glad you are for this part to be over God still has you in his arms holding you oh so tight you will be fine. You are such a blessing for so many people and they in turn are blessing you everyday as we pray for you and your wonderful family. Chin up rest now and get your strength back. Praise our wonderful Lord for always being with us even when we feel we cant go on he carries us like he did you last night.
I am glad you are finished! I hope you do not have to go thru it again! AWESOME!!!!!
So, have you thought about changing your avatar pic? Just wondering! I really like some of the latest pic’s posted of you!
I wish I were as slim as you….I need to go on a diet!
Love to you chickie!
Bev
Oh Heather!! Praise the Lord! I’m so, so thankful you are done with this part of your treatment. You look terrific! You continue to be in my prayers. True friends stand by you, no matter what. Don’t worry about the others. Take the time you need for yourself. We’ll all still be here for you!
Hugs,
Kate
Heather-
I, too, am celebrating with you! Yay! Radiation is done! And, you look wonderful, by the way! I read your blog every single post you make. It is helping me to keep my head up during my journey with cancer as well. I have bladder and kidney cancer (kidney tumor was just found today). Thank you for being real and writing your thoughts. It is such a blessing!
Take care and I am praying for you everyday!
Shari
P.S. Sorry I haven’t posted. We just got internet service in our new home. :)
Brilliant news :) I am glad you have realised you need to focus more on yourself for a while too. Your true friends will understand.
Awesome news! Continued prayers and blessings for you and your family.
I read your’s and Emma’s story. You are an amazing mom. I pray that God’s presence and strength pour over you and that He continues to go ahead of you preparing the hearts and minds of those you will come in contact with.
Praise the Lord! Now we need to all pray that the radiation does its job and does it quickly! That picture of you in the radiation machine is just heart breaking. I could’t imagine having to go through that. I’m so glad it’s over!
Blessings,
Georgia Mom
Yay for you! It is finished! The realization you have come to is so life-changing- and it’s really not being selfish. It’s loving yourself as you love others- and guess who said that?! It’s a commandment!
I have been so blessed to join you on your journey, Heather- you have taught me so much about the Lord’s goodness and kindness- may God continually bless you and yours…
xo
Hi Heather,
I came across this article and I am not sure if you have ever read it but I thought I would pass it on to you. God Bless:
http://www.crosswalk.com/1383847/
*hands up* Doin’ a little dance…*jumping up and down*
CONGRATULATIONS! And you look beautiful. Good for you, posting that picture. And you definitely need to be selfish with your energies. Any true friend will understand. Take care of yourself, girl. Still praying in PA…
HEATHER, wear your scars proudly! bald (for 7 months),breastless (permanently) scars fill the front of my torso….I AM BLESSED TO BE ALIVE and SO ARE YOU!
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/marianne
Heather,
Your not being selfish, sometimes you have to take time just for you. That is when God gives you the strength you need to go to the next level with HIM!!!! You are a Blessing!!!!
SOOOooooooooooooo pleased it is over
Ditto what every one else is saying. You look beautiful.
I sure hope you are going to have a party!! You deserve it! I think you look beautiful and I KNOW that you are an inspiration to many.
Congratulations!!! You look wonderful!!! I have been praying with you and for you since your diagnosis and will continue to do so. May the Lord Bless you and keep you!!
So, so happy for you! You look mahvelous, absolutely amazing for all that you have endured thus far.
Praying for you this morning. May Jesus carry you today, dear Heather.
WOO HOO! Congratulations on making it through radiation!
Yippee !!
Your are such an inspiration. I admire your honesty and courage. Prayers said for you on this special day.
Congratulations, Heather. It is good to see you smile. Don’t feel bad about crying. Don’t feel bad about being scared. Don’t feel bad about any of the emotions you are having. You have had so much to bear. Just remember, Jesus spent a lot of time alone in prayer to God asking NOT to be nailed to the cross and Paul asked for the thorn in his flesh to be taken away. In this life we all have different crosses we bear but it isn’t always easy to bear them, it isn’t abnormal to ask why, and it isn’t wrong to ask for God to take them away.
May you feel the comfort of the Holy Spirit more than ever!
God bless you.
I have been reading your blog for about 3 months and I am so blessed by your perseverance in the face of such difficulty and your passion to share your life with others so that they may see Jesus in you. Many prayers are being said for your strength to return and your body to be physically restored by Our Great Healer!
You look great! Congrats!!!! :)
God bless :)
Praise God! I pray that God will continue to help you feel good and for complete healing! You look great!
What a wonderful day!!!! You be as selfish as you need to be right now and just take care of YOU. Those friends that fall away, were never true friends to begin with. Congratulations!!!!! and huge (((HUGS))))
Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation. Hab 3:18
You have been a picture of what it means to walk with Jesus Christ when flowers are falling off fig trees. May this cancer accomplish all it needs to, that you may glorify your Father in heaven, and continue to proclaim His truth and His presence all the days of your life. Run, Heather, Run.
Mourning into dancing, sorrow into joy. :)
So happy that this part of your journey is over! God totally has a plan that is so big for you–and it has already begun. You do know how much you’ve ministered to all of US while you’ve gone through this, right?!? In the midst of this trial, you’ve been given a ministry and so many have been blessed by God through your words. Thank you for sharing both the good and the bad, for He can be given glory through both!
You are so blessed. :)
Woooooohooooooo! I am doing the happy dance for you! This is a milestone to be celebrated. I hope your body keeps getting stronger and stronger and you feel great soon!
Very excited for you that you have come through that “dark night” with your faith intact. You have come “through the darkness into the sunshine” as Tess once said on Touched By An Angel. Enjoy some sunshine!
I know that the road ahead will still have bumps and detours but you have proved, probably even to yourself, that you can handle whatever life throws your way.
When the bad days come, and they still will because that’s just part of life, you can look back on this journey through your journal and remember that you didn’t know how you’d survive this, but you have and you can again through the little things that come your way, and the major life altering things!
Now take the time to enjoy your life with your family and friends!
Many blessings and prayers for a long happy life!
Christina
I hope that you see a glimpse of how many lifes you are touching - daily. You are truly walking with Jesus and are a shining example for all of us! Thank you!
YES!!
I know what your feeling! When I had my last radiation, I walked out of that hospital with the biggest smile on my face and a wonderful feeling of relief!! You think of YOU girl! I know what you mean about friends. You might just be surprised how many will prove their love for you through your trouble-ing time. I was!! Hang in there girl! Sue :-)
Congratulations! :-)
What you said is so true. When my mother died and I was deeply grieving, I found out who my true friends were. They stay in good times and in bad. You deserve to be selfish and careful with your energy right now. The true friends will not let you down, even when you have nothing to give.
xoxoxo
whohoo!!!! so glad Radiation is finished!!!! Still keeping you in prayers.
You are such a blessing and inspiration too many!!! Have a GREAT Weekend. hugs,
Kerley’s
You did it!!!!!!High five out to you. I was praying for you last evening and thought of you often throughout my shift at work. You have climbed a big mountain in the way that was best for you. Congrats!!!!!! Enjoy your summer with the kids and have fun. YOU deserve to take care of you, with no demands or expectations. Live Large.
May the lord continue to bless you and your family
Dawn
I’m glad you posted the picture. Did you know that you have peace in it?
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from Ottawa, Canada.
ROCK ON GIRL!
Yeay!!!!!
You’ve been on my heart so so much today I’m thrilled to read this post. You are such a blessing Heather, your brutal honesty is so refreshing, I feel priviledged to have been able to follow your journey. Thank you for sharing this song, could you please tell me what’s the title and artist, I would love to get this song, I was rockin with you!!
Congratulations on finishing radiation. Im so happy for you!
I am so happy for you dear Heather and I am so happy that you brought Minerva into our lives.
The Pilgrim Pals love you both!!…Love Terry
Heather,
It’s true..you are beautiful. I’m glad this chapter is over and pray for you to rest and regain strength for the journey. Don’t forget it’s not about how you feel, it’s about what you are allowing God to do through you.
Hugs and prayers,
Michelle
Dear Heather;
I have been following your blog since your diagnosis (forwarded by someone, I believe). First of all congratulations on the end of treatments. Secondly, I want you to know that while I have really admired you through your whole experience it’s your previous entry which makes me RESPECT YOU unbelievably. Raw. Real. Unapologetic. Exposed.
It’s how you should be at times. No need to always be strong. No need to always include scripture. Sometimes it’s not the right time. Doesn’t make you any less spiritual or close to God. It only makes you human.
Take good care. Keep on posting. I love your honestly. It makes me think I need to be more that way.
Oh Heather! I’m so glad that this chapter is closed for you. You truly are an inspiration, in.every.sense.of.the.word. In EVERTHING you do. God Bless you!!
Placing that mommy kiss on your noggin. Keep smiling, girlfriend!
You’re beautiful, you’ve inspired…time for yourself and your family is not selfish in my eyes. I have experienced life altering events…I can’t believe myself and others lived through them…I understand.
Very recently I have discovered many persons within the world of blogging who are not as they seem…not truly what they profess through blogging. They think they are, but they’re not. I’ve been saddened, and I pray for them. That is said to say this…I am truly blessed by your openness, kindness and your faithfulness to God.
Always hugs and prayers from me to you.
Dear Heather,
Congrats on finishing up the radiation. You’ve been in our thoughts and prayers often every day. Your posts are always an insight into your vulnerability and humanity - always though giving God the glory and praise. Take care dear one - and give Easton, Eli, Emma and Mark a big hug from us.
Heart hugs,
Heidi
Hey sweets!
Congrats! I’m so happy for you. We just got internet back after the move, so I’m catching up. You are the first :)
I’m SO Proud of you. You made it :)
Love you. Tons.
me *wink*
You are wonderful, I am glad you posted the picture… It represents a season of your life… In every one of your posts, I always see your faith, even in the ones where you are sad, or thinking out loud.
Remember, when Job went through all of his sufferings… He said something like …my ears have heard of you, but now my eyes have seen you. Through all of his sufferings, he came to see God in a way he never had before.. maybe that will be you to with this whole situation :)
I can tell you already have had some pretty awesome moments with God through your blog writings. Blessings Heather, you are an inspiration :)
Yes!!! One more step on this path behind you. You are looking fabulous! Keep it up - there are so many prayers floating heavenward for you and your family. Have a great weekend.
PRAISE GOD!!! :) :) :)
Rejoicing *loudly* with you, Heather!
Congratulations Heather! You are a beautiful woman both inside & out!
Kimberly
Hi Heather, I’m just checking in on you, making sure you are getting the
much deserved rest you need now. Let the Lord restore you to a renewed health and peace. ~*~Love to you and your hubby and 3 great kids!~*~
Praying all of this for you in Ca. Laurel
Dear Heather,
I bet you’re thrilled to be done with radiation (: You look amazing by the way. You know, I think deep down every Christian has felt the way you did during a crisis (in your previous post)….”what is God’s plan for my life, why don’t I see it clearer, He’s still there right”? You have the courage to post it and let others see you are a normal Christian going through a crisis. I told my husband about you and your blog and he said wow, I can’t imagine having the courage to post such honest thoughts. There’s so many verses in the Bible that talk about being tested, being tried and my personal favorite is the refiner’s fire. I heard a great sermon on that subject over 10 years ago and still I remember it…the refiner (ie blacksmith) would have to heat the metal to ridiculously hot temperatures and after, the purity of the metal shone through and it was completely pliable and bendable. What I loved about that illustration was the imagery of God being the refiner, testing and purifying his children in the same way. Heating up with trials and resulting in a purer product.
I am truly sorry you have to be going through this but maybe it’s a tiny comfort to know you are reaching many people. I’ve read through some of the comments here on your blog and many others (including me!) find your posts uplifting and edifying. I really think it’s ok to have crappy days because they always lead to better ones where you appreciate the blessings, like you listed in your posts. You are truly a strong, Godly woman and you are reflecting Christ in your blogging. The goal of every Christian is to be more like Christ and who can imagine the suffering He endured, who could empathize better than Him the pain of what you’re going through? Keep your chin up, hug those beautiful kids of yours and focus on getting healthy! Still praying for you.
Molly (:
Gosh, you look radiant in that picture with the sign! And your nails are done! Truly, The Lord has given you such grace to go on with such spunk and inspiration to the rest of us!
When I wake up in the middle of the night (which is LOTS, being in this silly perimenopausal time in my life!), I pray for you.
Thank you, thank you for sharing your story and for the honor of coming alongside you in prayer.
In Christ,
Colleen
Yes, I also noticed the beautiful nails! You are a beautiful woman inside and outside! Thankful with you that the radiation is DONE! Amen.
Heather,
Everyday I come and read your next posting. As I sit here with tears in my eyes, I feel like you are a friend giving me the news. I have never met you, and I probably never will. However, through your daily posts, the pictures and prayers I feel like we have been friends for life. I look at your smile in the last picture and feel as though I am right there with you, cheering you on, telling you your did it!! I am so very proud of you. I pray for you everyday…I say “God, help Especially Heather in…” and I continue with whatever He has laid on my heart. You are an inspiration to us all and a testimony to HIM to all that have read this, to all those in the hospital and most important to you children. They will ALWAYS remember (even when they are 92) how stong, how brave and how much their Mom loved the Lord…she Loved the Lord through one of the toughest times a person can have in their life.
Just know, that you are cared about, you are never alone and here is a Hug through the computer {{ Heather }}.
Judy
Yay! You look wonderful. Keep taking care of yourself. :)
Hi Heather, congratulations on completing radiation! What a milestone, I know it’s a relief to be done with it. Katie
Bravo!!!
So happy for you!! Lots of love and prayers from down here!
Angie from Mexico
I hadn’t stopped by in awhile and so I was just catching up with your blog. Wow! You certainly have had a lot of ups and downs recently! I celebrate with you in seeing an end to radiation and chemo, for now. Also, in getting to go to Women of Faith, how wonderful that will be for you and for your mom! My heart wonders with yours, “What are you doing God?!?!” And my soul praises with yours that ultimately, God is good.
Take care,
Amy
Heather…Awesome!
As I looked at your photo all I could think about was Psalm 45…the King is enthralled with your beauty! And you are beautiful through and through. I found an article that I wanted to share with you so I hope you take some time to read the article and feast on Psalm 45. Press on, Mighty Warrior!
http://www.briomag.com/briomagazine/spiritualhealth/a0007258.html
Congratulations! I can so remember my last day too.
http://justabeachkat.blogspot.com/2006/06/last-day-of-radiation.html
I threw a party for the girls in the office a week or so later and posted pics of that too on my blog. It’s a time to celebrate.
Love your photo with your sign. You look fantastic!
You go girl!
Hugs!
Kat
Good Night Heather, It is 10:00 pm out here in Ca. I hope this post finds
you unable to read because you are sleeping like a log with your honey right beside you, both of you sleeping with lighter spirits and great peace
and joy in your hearts. Comfort, sweet Jesus comfort surround you as you rest and heal, body, spirit and soul. ~*~Restful and Healing thoughts to you tonight with love~*~Laurel
I’m so happy for you that it is done…and do just that. Put your energy into yourself…heal yourself and be in peace with God and your family, Everyone will understand
Celebrating with you Heather.
Prayers, hugs & love.
Praising God that this is over!!!!
Dear Heather,
Thank you so much for all your good wishes and congratulations on finishing radiation. What a wonderful step to finish! Just remember that the skin can sometimes be more sore whilst healing than during the treatment. Don’t worry as it is normal!
Thinking of you,
Minerva
I just found your website….and I celebrate with you this glorious day of being finished with the radiation!
In your honor, my duaghter and I went outside and picked raspberries….and danced in the cool breeze of the morning.
We will visit back often, and during our days we will think of you…..a woman that we only know from her couragous words and pictures, that she shares…..to help us all realize that each day is a blessing and that we are all glorious gifts in this world.
Peace and love, Tara Marie
Congratulations! You glow with the love of God in you and are such an inspiration for those of us going through our own trials (which are nothing like yours). Keep on being you! Many blessings, Joanne
Hi Heather,
I am praying for you to have a peaceful, rest filled weekend, giving your
precious body time to soak up the healing touch of the Lords hands. Let your hubby and kids love on you this weekend, and continue to rest big-time. You have earned every single moment of it Heather, good and faithful servant. ~*~Big Jesus blessings to you and yours today~*~Laurel in Ca.
Heather,
Congratulations! You did it! I am so happy for you- you are such an inspiration.
Jennine
Heather,
I am so happy that this phase is over for you.
I appreciate how honest you are with us. In doing so, you are also honest with yourself, which is priceless. This is just like all honesty…when you are honest, you don’t have to remember “the story” you told to hide the truth. It just makes life so much simpler. It helps those who love you understand better what your specific needs are at different times. Sometimes you need and want to be cheered up and have your mind distracted for a bit. Sometimes you need someone to listen…even when it’s only silence. Sometimes you need someone to hold you and whisper in your ear, “it will be alright; I’m here with you.” Your honesty teaches us all very important lessons.
I sit here with a diagnosis of cirrhosis. Although I seem fine on the outside, except for fatigue and immeasurable aches and pains, that means I am dying. Without a transplant, I will die…maybe in 3 years, maybe sooner, maybe later.
The thing is, as we have always known, “tomorrow is promised to no one.” Just when I’m thinking…maybe I should REALLY clean out my closet and make sure there is nothing left that I don’t want opened to the world…I realize ANYONE can die at ANYTIME. It could even be me…it could be TODAY. What I am learning, and what you are learning, is that evryday needs to count for something.
We have a different perspective that is good to share with the world.
Peace be with you,
Annamaria
Congratulations! I read your blog everyday, and keep you close in my thoughts and prayers. You inspire me, with you unfailing love and faith. To God be the glory, forever and ever.
Heather, I’m so glad this part of your journey is behind you. You are such a remarkable testimony to God’s grace. God bless you!
You are beautiful Heather!!! You are in my thoughts and prayers!!!!
Hang in there, you are such a courageous woman!!!
God Bless you and yours!
The beauty in you shines through… both photographs… thank you for being so brave here, living out loud, sharing the journey. If there are days you are tempted to think that these comments are just words on a screen that cannot reach you.. please remember that each one represents a person responding from their heart… to yours… and it’s real, and it is because of God.
I was checking for more news…and saw that the “end of radiation” post is still there. How fitting, that we should still be celebrating the end of radiation with you!
I hope the lack of postings means that you’re busy celebrating…and that’s all!
And the wig…it still looks beautiful!
Heather, Congratulations on being done with Radiation!! You continue to be such an inspiration!!!! Much Love, Sherri
How wonderful that you’re done radiation!!!! What a huge blessing!!!
And definitely you do everything you can to look after yourself and never worry about being selfish. You need to look after yourself first and not worry about anything else!
We all adore you and wish you all the best!!!!
Praise the Lord! Now the healing continues.. we’re always here for you. You go girl!
And thanks for swallowing that pride and posting that photo. I know it’s hard to do but it made us even “closer” to you. We love you Heather - you are an inspiration to us.
Congrats!!! You are always in my thoughts and prayers!!
:) Samantha MaYe
Stopping in to see how you’re doing today, Heather. Hoping that you are having a restful and peaceful Sunday. I’m so happy that the radiation part is over. Now onto complete healing!! Goodbye to cancer!! God is blessing you in so many ways and has made you a voice for all of us to hear. Thank you!
Thanks again for sharing. I’m so happy for you and I’m still praying for you! D
I can only imagine your exhilaration at being finished with the radiation! CONGRATS!!! And if anyone deserves to be selfish (for a long time!), it’s someone like you!
Yaaaaaay!!!!!!!!!
And…you’re not being selfish–you’re simply making sure your cup is filled before you fill others. That’s called wisdom.
Love and blessings!!!!! gretchen
Congratulations! Thank you so much for sharing your life with us. You have deeply touched my heart and from all the above comments, you are touching so many lives in wondrous, positive ways! I agree with Gretchen; it’s not being selfish (though it may feel like it) to take care of yourself and make sure your own cup is full before helping others.
Will continue to pray for you and your family.
Renee’
Just came by to give you a ((((Hug)))) glad to see you are takin time off to breathe. Just want to let you know our prayers are still going up while you are hopefully laying down :) .
Because of Jesus, obbie
Hi Heather,
I’ve been out of the bloggin loop for several weeks. What a joy to come back and read that your radiation treatments are all over. Halleluiah, or, as we’ve been saying in VBS all week - very loudly -WAAAAAA-HOOOOOOO!
Heather please go to my site and read my new, news. It could help you too maybe. Sue
http://sue123.blogforacure.com/weblog
Good morning Heather,
I see you have been resting and taking care of yourself. It is good to come to the home page here and see you have slowed down and are taking time out for you. I hope your body is rapidly on the mend inside and out, and that your spirit is resting too. Continued prayers for a very restful week, full of love, peace and healing touches from the Lord.
~*~Buckets of Blessings to you and your family today~*~ Laurel
Heather my boss at work gave me a great CD to listen to today - Her name is Jill Paquette - listen to “Only Jesus,” “Lift my Eyes” and “Free”. Love your faith - keep on growing in it sister!
Wooooooooooo Hooooooooooo!!!! Praising the Lord with ya’!!!! :)
Julie in Texas
I know you’re thrilled to be finished with radiation.
Here is something else written by David Welch on his blog 38 Lemon that will bolster your resolve to put yourself first during cancer treatment:
A good reminder
It is not my intent to suggest anything abstract here. My reminder to myself is that I must put my body first when making decisions about what to do. While I am on chemo, my body needs to be first and foremost. When tired, my body needs to rest, despite my want to do other things or be in other places or be with people. That is emotionally hard to accept, but I can see that even subtle changes to these boundaries have a ripple effect that can take dispoportionate time from which to recover. A good reminder.
*****
This man has a real Type A personality and it was necessary for him to change his instinctive “do, do, do”
to allow for more reflective periods of “just being and reading.”
Praise the Lord! So glad that you are done with radiation!!
Heather, thank you for always being so transparent. You bless so many by sharing your journey, potholes and scenic vistas, it’s all part of life.
Personally, I don’t think what you’re talking about is “selfish”. I guess I just don’t like the word, because it seems to be contrary to our faith. However, having said that, I think you nailed it on the head when you talked about not pleasing people. The only One you need to please is God. And yes, I think He does want you to take care of your body–it is after all the temple of His Holy Spirit. He wants you to devote your time and energy into making it well, and to spending time with that precious family that you are ministering to even when it is only by your presence with them as they share this journey with you.
You are one of my heroes, and I am praying for you and for your family, and I am so blessed and inspired by you, someone I’ve never even met. I pray that many would come to know Christ as a result of “watching” you here, that they would seek to know this hope that is within you, that they may have eternal life.
Love, Shelley
wow 175 Comments! Your so Popular! (I say that in real life in a chinese infliction in my voice like the guy from 16 candles.)
I’ve been crazy busy, not been able to comment but reading as often as possible.
Your picture just makes my heart sing. Honest to goodness say out loud right now, “Praise the Lord!”
I go away for a few months and come back and look at you! Kickin butt! =)
Congratulations Heather!!! And yes, I so agree that now is the time to be a little selfish. Bless you, bless you, and bless you. What a brave person you are for taking the time to bless all of us with your words and wonderful pictures.
Where are you? I miss your sweet spirit!
Congrats on finishing this course in your life. It took courage, and faith. I must admit, Heather, it isn’t so much your strength that I admire as it is your transparency. You are so real about everything you think and feel…and even when it isn’t “Hallelujah”…somehow, it always seems to end up that way. And that, my friend, is gorgeous.
No matter how rough your day, I still see Jesus in you.
Dear Heather, I am thinking of you today!!!! I am praying for you and your family.
I don’t think I’ve commented before, but I’ve been following your story for a while. You’ve come quite a ways from “inoperable,” haven’t you?
Anyway, I just wanted to say “congratulations!” and that I admire your attitude toward the whole thing.
WA-HOO!!!!!
You’re finished - it’s-your-birthday-you’re finished - you’re rockin!!!!
(to be said while chanting and dancing at the same time!)
It’s going to be something to look back on this milestone later in your life, mainly for yourself, but also for your family, and all of us in your bloggy family too!
Now, that’s enough of me yakking. Go celebrate!!
Congrats! You rock!
Heather
You are an amazing woman!!! Your testimony shows the reality in being a Christian that we do suffer, we do get down, we hurt, we cry and thru it all we still have Jesus. We are human not super humans. Thank You for being transparent you are such a testimony!!!! Thanks for letting us know when you are hurting so we know how to pray for you. Thanks for being you.
CONGRATS:):):):)
Heather-
Is everything OK? Haven’t hard from you in a few days. Praying everyday for you!
Take care-
Shari
A FOLLOWER JUST HOPING YOU ARE OK. I PRAY YOU ARE . KA
I have been following your story, and you are such an inspiration. I hope you are ok, you haven’t posted in a few days..
Hi Heather,
It is good to see that you are keeping your word to rest and take time
out from pleasing all of us out here in blogland. It is so enough to know
that the radiation is over and you are taking a break. I am praying you sleep so good every night, waking up refreshed to your family and taking naps during the day as you heal. You have touched my heart so much in
the short time I’ve become a regular here and I love you for your honesty and trust in the Lord, (no harps or halos attached) :). Take care and when you do post again, it will be great to hear how you are. ~*~Healing Hugs to you from Ca. tonight~*~ Sleep Tight! Laurel
Coming out of lurking to say Yay no more radiation! Your story is inspiring! I am praying for you and your family! I hope all is well!
Dear Heather..Haven’t heard from you for a few days.
I hope that you are feeling well and that everything is alright!!
I hope you are getting lots of rest!
Love Terry
My prayers are with you and your family each day………
Praise God!! You have been an incredible blessing as I read your journey through cancer and treatments. Praying God will continue to be close and real to you in the days ahead!
late to encourage - as always. i’m so glad you’re through with the radiation!
and i’m sorry about you feeling bruised the other day. i’m so sorry. i am so glad that you are so transparent in your blog - i think your transparency is helping so many people. thank you for being so open.
we’re still lovin’ and prayin’ for you.
I am so glad you finished radiation. I pray that it was successful. You haven’t posted in a while. I hope you are alright. You are in my prayers.
Hooray for you! Great pictures, and I hope you continue to feel better and better.
You are my hero. Congratulations.
Your strenth inspires me. I wish I could reach out and give you a hug…here’s your virtual one…HUGS!
Amen, Phil 4:13
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Amen, g-d is good
GP in Montana
celebrating with YOU!!! Totally awesome, God is soooo goood!!!!!!
awesome, heather!! brilliant, and you look gorgeous :)
peace and continued blessings….
Wonderful, wonderful news! Praise God!
Congratulations Heather - but don’t expect too much.. I found the tiredness really kicked in during the latter part of radiation and stayed for a while afterwards…
And honey? You look beautiful…
Minerva