Mending
I have to tell you, I feel so much better! I still tire easily, and and sleep alot, but I could get use to this “no radiation” feeling!
Many of you have asked if I am going to continue to homeschool, and the answer is “sort of”. We have found a school here in town who will teach the kids on Tuesday and Wednesday and allow me to teach them on Monday, Thursday and Fridays… I didn’t want to put the back in to school based on how I have felt this past 6 weeks, so this seems like a perfect solution to that problem!
I have been super busy (well, as busy as my body will allow me to be!) Friday night Mark took me out to dinner and a movie. We really really had a great time. I married an awesome awesome man.
Saturday I took Easton to see “Hairspray”. She thought that it would be like High School Musical, but it wasn’t. I wasn’t really fond of the “dance moves” in the movie, and we talked about that afterwards. It did have a good message! Easton and I had an amazing time, just the two of us!
I am sorry for not updating regularly. When I feel good enough to get out of the house, I take advantage of that! Today I met my high school friend Karly and her kids at her moms house and really had a great time. We talked about the good ole days, and how we have changed since then… It was really good to see her!
I am debating whether or not to continue chemo, so pray that the Lord would give me direction in that situation. I felt so very very bad on it, and they cant tell me if it is working or not. My oncologist said that this is what they treat Stage IV cancer patients with, so they assume that it will work on my type of cancer (Grade III) but he said that it was completely and totally up to me and many with my type of brain cancer choose not to be on it. That is a big decision, and I dont want to take it lightly. I have until August 16th to decide. I will also ask many questions regarding the pros and cons with my Oncologist at Moffit on the 16th.
So that is it! I’m on the way to mending, both physically and emotionally. Since April, my life has been a whirlwind of heartbreak and chaos. Now that I am done with cancer treatment I want to begin putting the pieces back together again and am enjoying my family and friends. I haven’t been out of my house much since cancer treatment started, so I am taking full advantage of feeling as good as I do!
“The way we mend” Bebo Norman
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It Is Finished!!
Radiation, that is :)
(I swallowed my pride and posted this picture…)
As I close this chapter in my journey, I look back and realize that I need to change some things in my life. I think the thing that I realize most is I put too much pressure on myself in attempt to try to please people, and I just cant afford to do that, especially right now. Right now is the time to be selfish with my energy and I give myself permission to do that.
I read this on 38lemon:
Be selfish. Now is the time to take care of yourself. In a lot of ways, this will test your friendships. Will your friends understand your relative unavailability or not? Certain friendships may fall off because of this. Other friendships will be steadfast. Don’t be afraid of that dynamic.
Anyone who has had a life altering experience can relate to those words.
Thank you to all of you who commented on my last post, I, again, read every single one. It was so hard for me to hit the “publish” button, Laura can attest to that fact. But I am glad I did, I cried harder last night than I have since cancer entered my life, and that is okay, it is okay to feel all alone, as long as you don’t stay in that spot for too long.
See, I do have bad days! But even in my bad days, I realize I am so enormously blessed…
Now celebrate with me!! I am done with radiation!
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