The nights are the worst…
August 23, 2007
Ive been up since 2am. Take your worst nausea and then multiply it by 1934. And then multiply that by itself…. and it still wouldn’t come close to what I feel. To make things worse, it isn’t the “Throwing Up” type of nausea. This morning I just sat on the couch and cried with Mark.
I took 4 Zofran. FOUR.
Today is our first day of homeschooling (my 2 oldest kids go to school 2 days a week and are home for 3), and I feel utterly useless.
So if you wouldn’t mind, say a prayer for me today. Pray that my body would react positively to the chemo, and that I would feel better.
They say Temador builds up in your system and the last few days are going to be the worst. My last day is Saturday, but I expect I will feel it through Monday. I feel like I have been hit by a truck, and then hit again.
And again.
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95 Responses to “The nights are the worst…”
I would love to hear from you!
Oh girl, I’m so sorry you feel so badly.
PRAYING FOR YOU!
xoxo
Lea H.
I will be praying hard today!!! He will help you through.
Much Love,
Astraea
Praying for you!
When I read this, it took me back to experiencing this with my dearest friend Linda who spent countless days on the couch horribly sick after chemo. Heather I know exactly where you are and it is a hugely difficult battle. I came by here early and I will pray for you throughout the day. I am so sorry you are going through this, and I will be praying for you and your children today.
Father you are bigger than this cancer and chemo, I ask you take Heather in your arms today and show her your power Father, let her feel your presence.
OY! You are definitely in my thoughts. I have to admit, I feel like such a heel for mentioning, in one of my last comments, about having taken Zofran. Yes, I know what being truly sick feels like. Heck, I was even hospitalized for it while pregnant. I hope you don’t think I was trying to compare my suffering to yours and that I was only trying to empathize. It’s been on my mind ever since. Four Zofran?! If I were there, I would give you a big hug.
Taking time out to pray for you. May you be filled with peace and mercy and an absence of symptoms.
May you find the strength to unite your own suffering with Christ’s suffering and may you continue to feel Him hold you close.
Praying that you feel radically better and/or that Monday comes quickly!!
Bless you, dear one…
Hang in there, hon. I’m with you in prayer. ((hugs))
Praying…
I hope you are feeling better soon! I will definitely pray for you.
My prayers go up for you. May this weekend be a time of healing for your body and mind! Rest in Him.
Do you ever listen to Considering Lily? They aren’t together any more, but I think of you every time I hear the song “Come Rest” and I sing it loudly for you!
Oh honey…this is horrible. Praying so hard for your strength and for that darn nausea to go away.
Im praying for you today. Ihope your homeschooling day goes well.
Prayers for you. I can’t even imagine trying to function with everything going on in your body. But you are the strongest girl I know, bar none. Take today a minute at time, if you need to.
And we’ll still be here for you.
xoxo
Heather, know what you are going through, nausea without the “throwing up” kind is the worse, it really drains you. Praying for you and your family today as you try to get through it. He will carry you through.
Hugs,
Norma
oh Lord please bring peace and rest to this weary body. amen
Lord, I echo Tami’s prayer, above. In Jesus’ name, amen.
Heather. I love your blog photo. You are beautiful, as always.
Prayers being said Sis!
((hugs))
Praying for you and your family.
Tell yourself “It won’t always be this way.” Take it hour by hour.
I am praying for you.
Praying for you to feel better. I have experienced a lot of nausea in my life and I just feel for you so much. At times I think I’d rather have pain than nausea. I just hope and pray that you will feel better soon. God bless you.
I am praying for your healing and that you would feel better today.
Definitely praying for you to feel better!
God bless :)
I cant even imagine. Praying you feel better very quickly. I am sure it hard to try and stay strong all the time.
(((((((((Heather))))))))))))
Sending you prayers and hugs. I’m so sorry that you are going through this. Praying for you to feel God’s arms around you, praying for the nausea to go away, and praying for you to be able to get through the day in His love with your children.
Ps. 91:14-16 - This is what the Lord says to you :
Because Heather loves me, I will rescue her; I will protect her, for she acknowledges my name. She will call upon me, (again and again) and I will answer her; I will be with her in trouble, I will deliver her and honor her. With long life will I satisfy her and show her my salvation.
I am praying, again and again. May the grace of the Lord Jesus, the love of the Father and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be experienced this moment.
Love you, friend! Mae Beth
Praying for you and your kids right now.
Remember, the best thing your kids could ever learn in homeschooling is love, compassion, and how to care for others… which is JUST what they have a chance to learn today with you.
(((((Big Hugs)))))
Nausea is absolutely the worst symptom of anything in the world! I would take pain over nausea any day! Praying for you here…
I knew that song would touch your heart.
Prayers for you for sure Heather ((big hugs))xoxo melzie
Oh, dear Heather. My heart aches for you. I wake up in the night and pray for you. Hang in there. Do you know the “Going on a Bear Hunt” story/rhyme for kids? Can’t go over it, can’t go under it, guess we’ll have to go through it? Go through it and know that you are never alone — no matter how dark and scary and bumpy the ground is. You are in His hands and surrounded by loved ones who continue to lift your name up to Him. Better days ARE ahead.
Oh sweet girl… you know you’ll be covered in prayers today. Don’t you worry for one second about school, either! A day with their mommy trying to get stronger is worth way more than working on math facts or grammar rules. Rest and breathe in the sounds of your kids at home with you. Praying, praying, praying.
Heather,
Prayers going up. You are on my mind often. I know you will make it through this, just as you have made it through so many other days that seemed bigger than you. God will give you strength when you are weak. Of course, you know that much better than I do! Hang in there. The other side of this is closer than you think!!
We don’t know each other face to face, but you are in my prayers today & everyday.
When the nausea was really bad for my son, we used other drugs in combination. We’d alternate them so he was taking something every couple of hours.
Zofran and Ativan worked really well together with the fewest side effects. We’d add Benadryl if those two didn’t work, and lastly Phenergan.
I also heard that those scopolamine seasickness patches work well for some people with chemo-induced nausea.
They can also try a combination of zofran and dexamethasone IV, that sometimes works.
Lastly, you can try one of the other anti-nausea drugs like Kytril or Anzamet, they have a similar mechanism to zofran but are not the same.
I pray you find something that works.
Just keep going girl… keep going.
I’m praying for you.
Oh, Heather- I am so sorry this is so tough… I will esp. be thinking and praying for you today…
xo
Oh honey ((((((HUGS))))))
Sending prayers up for you!
Praying for you today!
Praying…..
praying for you with a smile. you are awesome!
Hey Heather,
Really feeling for you at the moment, I am struggling with nausea but under way different circumstances, but our God is an awesome God and I’ve put a request on my blog for tonnes of prayers for you, so we know God’s on the case, and we’re all praying you’ll find relief real soon. Lots of love and hugs, Del xxx
http://www.peteanddel.blogspot.com/
Asking God to wrap is tummy settling arms around you this day and on.
I can do that and have and will……
Oh, Heather, I’m praying! God bless you as you struggle with this!
Sallie
I am a sister in Christ, and homeschooler too, I am praying for you every day Heather. Useless? You are more useful than you could ever imagine! Remember you’ve started the school year early for days like this! Your kids will LEARN TODAY! Life happens and they learn compassion and patience. These are things you cannot learn from a book. Take it easy and snuggle up with the kids and watch a movie together, let them make “Feel Better” cards for mommy, Let them read a story or act one out for you.
First day of school- bitter/sweet
Not having the energy you hoped for-frustrating
Having children that understand-PRICELESS!
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“No man (or woman) is useless who can pray”
Oh (((Heather))).
I don’t know if this can be done or not, but can you ask your MD for an IV dose of a different anti-nausea med? I personally do not respond positively to Zofran but have had complete success with other antinausea meds. I’m wondering if an injectible or IV dose (and maybe a different med) might give you better relief (I’m guessing injectibles are unlikely because of infection risk, but what about IV? Do you have a port or heplock/iv site in place currently?)
In the meantime, I’m praying for relief. I’m so sorry for all you’re going through, Heather. Words cannot express what I’m feeling for you and your family.
Blessings,
~Toni~
This is bringing back memories of holding a friend’s hand during his time through chemo except there was no Tamador and there certainly wasn’t any Zofran back then. I am feeling your pain and will continue to pray for you. Hang in there. Life will be worth it…
Prayers are being lifted all throughout the world… rest my friend…
Dear Lord,
May Heather have those around her be her strength and carry the heaviness of it all so that she may have much rest through this time. Comfort her Dear Lord as only You can… Carry her Dear Lord to ease the suffering she faces today.
In Jesus Name… Amen…
Wishing you a beautifully blessed and peaceful weekend ahead…
**Lots of Comforting Hugs**
Deborah
Praying…
I hope you feel better soon.
I’m praying for you, honey. One breath at a time.
Heather, I’m sorry you are feeling so sick. I just got done praying for you!! I hope you feel better soon and that the nausea will decrease!!
Love, Sherri
http://www.caringbridge.org/oh/kara
Praying for you and your family! (((hugs)))
Prayers going up for you today asking God to shower His comfort down on you today. I agree with Toni above in maybe an injectible or iv med. If possible, it might give your poor stomach a much needed break from all the other meds you have to swallow. Just a thought. On a personal note, when I did chemo 11 years ago, I used pot (please don’t be shocked as it honestly worked when nothing else did). That’s just me and that was back then. It took the nausea away and for that, I was so grateful.
~*~Comfort Hugs and Prayers for you today Heather~*~Laurel in Ca.
(((HUGS))) I am sending lots of prayers your way for God’s healing.
Heather…you don’t know me and I don’t comment often but I pray for you each and every morning at 6:00 when I am walking…I will certainly pray for you…the girls here in my office in Memphis are praying too…I keep them updated about you and we all are pulling for you…I found this verse this morning and thought it might be a comfort to you. I love you as a sister in Christ…Sharon
When I said, “My foot is slipping,” your love, O LORD, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.†(Psalm 94:18-19)
heather,
I am so sorry that you are feeling so bad. I am sitting here tearing up trying to imagine what it must feel like to be you right now. My heart breaks for you and I am praying.
Oh wow… I can’t even begin to imagine… I’m praying Psalm 3 for you - “But You, O LORD, are a shield about Heather, Her glory, and the One who lifts her head.”
Heather,
I am praying so hard for you dear. You are such a strong person and I know that your precious children are learning SO MUCH from their beautiful mommy.
Stephanie
sweetie, I’m praying.
love you
me
Praying for you today and always.
Because of Jesus, Bobbie
I’m praying for you Heather. May God bring you peace and rest. Just take one moment at a time.
Kristy
Heather - I’m praying for you.
love and hugs your way lovely lady…
b
Oh, Heather….I’m praying too….
I’m praying for you. :)
JoAnn
I’m praying for you as always. Stay strong.
(((HUGS))) and prayers for you.
I am praying for you, Heather. Please don’t be afraid to call your doctor and ask for something else to help with the nausa. Take care of yourself - if you need to lie on the sofa all day, then lie on the sofa. This is the time for healing. And prayers are coming your way.
Praying for you, Heather. As a lady said on a forum I’m on, ‘your pain puts ours in perspective.’ I’ve had pain in my hip and knee for a few days, but nothing I have compares with what you are going through. May you start feeling better, and the nausea subsides.
You’re in my prayers. I pray that the days and nights are easier for you really soon.
Heather,
Hugs, prayers and tears for you today…just wanted you to know.
-michelle
Lord, help my friend today. Give her more, Lord…You are More, Father. Give her more of You. Help her and give her rest and healing. Amen.
((((Heather))))) I’m praying.
bless you my, sister !
I have something waiting for you.
http://tonsofsons.wordpress.com/2007/08/23/im-so-honored/
I am so sorry that you are feeling so yucchy. I will be praying that your body and spirit get some relief from that nasty nausea. As for schooling, your precious kiddos are getting life lessons that no text book could offer. I would much rather my children learn compassion than chemistry any ol’ day. You ARE stronger than cancer!
Heather,
I am praying for you! Wow, you look a lot better than I did without hair.
Hang in there… soon I pray this will be a distant memory and you will be asking yourself if that really happened or was just a bad dream.
There are so many blessings that came out as a result of my cancer. I pray the same for you and total healing.
Keep pumping the water and walk when you can, it helped me a lot.
You have renewed my mission to fund raise and beat this disease so no more of our sisters and brothers have to go through this.
God bless!
Brenda Ladun
Praying for you right now as I type.
I am not here much…as my DH has cancer also… but I do keep up with you and your treatment. I am praying for you today, and everyday. I hate you have to to go through this. Are you sure you should be homeschooling right now? I HS’ed also and it was a lot of work! Isn’t there someone who could fill in at least a day or so to help out? Don’t try to do it all, Heather, it is okay to have help. It is even a good thing to let someone else do some things and you take a nap or spend time with the kids AFTER school. You need rest and healing right now. I pray God will deliver it to you. {{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}
I’m so sorry, Heather! I’m praying for you to feel better.
This morning after reading your post I “laid hands on you” via your image on the screen! It may sound silly but I so much want you to be comforted, healed, held in the loving arms of God.
I can’t even say that I know what you are going through but if I could carry a portion of your burden to relieve you of your sickness, I would. If there were some kind of bank where we could all go to withdraw some of your suffering, I know that we all would!
But since I can’t I continue to pray. I know there is power in prayer. I have seen it so many times in my own life.
Be still and know that He is God.
As always, hugs and prayers…
Heather,
Take care… You are in my prayers. Wishing you great comfort.
Many Blessings~
Paula
Praying for you, Heather.
Praying here as well. xxoo
Always praying!
I am so sorry. I’ve had chemo but I can’t imagine nausea that four Zofran won’t help. :(
Of course you’re in my prayers.
Oh Heather, I am so sorry. I am praying.
hope you will feel better very soon….
when my son is not feeling well which is often we try to go with him to a great deli and he picks out whatever he wants…somtimes its just a fresh roll and somtimes its olives or salami or stinky cheese…just the trip alone out in the freash air, sunshine and people helps….( small meals is the way to go )nothing heavy…
be strong….you are a hero….
Heather,
I am sorry you are having such a rough time. I just want you to know I’m continuing to pray for you and every Sunday at Mass we light a candle for you as we pray. All those flickering candles represent somebody’s prayer and it is a visible reminder that our prayers are constantly being heard. Heather, hang in there. They say it is always darkest before the dawn :-)
When I feel sick to my stomach, it’s cold cherry coolaid & chicken noodle soup with a few crackers crumbled up in it. Not at the same time though. I pray you feel better.
3 pilgrim responses:
jel said…
will Be
huggs
August 24, 2007 12:58 PM
prayingsensfaninmontreal said…
Praying for you always!
Little Montreal Girl
August 24, 2007 2:16 PM
passing-thru said…
Thanks for copying and posting Terry — Heather , if U do see this , know , that we will pray —
Am so sorry that even God’s children are afflicted with the illnesses of fallen man - Will pray that U will be able to handle the chemo — your friend and fellow Christian
August 24, 2007 5:34 PM
Dearest Heather..We are always praying for you…Love Terry
PS..Please don’t feel utterly useless because you are NOT!!
You have my prayers, my dear blogger friend!
Hey girly I haven’t been by in a while BUT DO NOT think I am not thinking about you daily,,, I am ,, I pray to the Lord to give you strength and to chipper your heart….. Hang in there you lookin great with that hair doo…. keep kickin and you will break through the wall!!!!!
I hope you can FEEL all the prayers being said for you, Heather. I can’t even imagine what you are going through but I’m praying you will feel some relief very, very soon! Blessings to you, Sweet Girl!!!
(((hug))) Praying…
We have never met, but I am praying for your strength and your healing.
Jess