A shapeless piece of steel, that’s all I claim to be
This hammer pounds to give me form, this flame, it melts my dreams
I glow with fire and fury, as I’m twisted like a vine
My final shape, my final form I’m sure I’m bound to find
So dream a little, dream for me in hopes that I’ll remain
And cry a little, cry for me so I can bear the flames
And hurt a little, hurt for me my future is untold
But my dreams are not the issue here, for thee, the hammer holds
And the water, it cools me gray, and the hurt’s subdued somehow
I have my shape, this sharpened point, what is my purpose now?
And the question still remains, what am I to be?
Perhaps some perfect piece of art displayed for all to see
So dream a little, dream for me in hopes that I’ll remain
And cry a little, cry for me so I can bear the flames
And hurt a little, hurt for me my future is untold
But my dreams are not the issue here, for thee, the hammer holds
The hammer pounds again, but flames I do not feel
This force that drives me, helplessly, through flesh, and wood reveals
A burn that burns much deeper, it’s more than I can stand
The reason for my life was to take the life of a guiltless man
So dream a little, dream for me in hopes that I’ll remain
And cry a little, cry for me so I can bear the pain
And hurt a little, hurt for me, my future is so bold
But my dreams are not the issue here, for thee, the hammer holds
This task before me may seem unclear
But it, my maker holds
Emma’s clinic went well, they were impressed with her echo and EKG. There is some questions about her liver, but she has always had a big liver so they said they would review her labs and get back to me on that. (IOW: we are not too concerned) There is also some question about her CO2 levels on her last blood draw, it was remarkably lower than the time before, but some of her immune-suppressant drugs cause renal tubular acidosis as does her Mitochondrial Disease so if her levels are low again, we will just add Bicitra to her meds again. Ill give a more detailed update once I hear from the Transplant Team.
Pray for me this week, it is Chemo week (and weekend). I start Thursday Night and end Tuesday Night, so if my posting seems lower than usual, I will be spending this week with my family.
Thanks for your prayers 
-H
So happy that Emma’s clinic appts went as expected. Her life story is remarkable.
I hope chemo is more managable this time. Maybe it’s a learning curve…and maybe you’re expereinces from last will help this round. And, of course, we’ll be praying that the chemo is doing it’s job.
You’re amazing Heather. Remember that!
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers sis.
So glad that Emma did well at clinic! Keeping her right along with you in my heart and prayers.
Love you guys!
Praying for you Heather, miss emma and the rest of your family.
I am glad everything went well with Emma’s clinic visit. I will be praying for you as you go through this next round of chemo.
~Gina
Heather,
Glad to hear the good news on Emma and praying for the whole family as you enter the next round of chemo.
Hugs and Prayers,
Norma
Keeping ya’ll in my prayers. BTW so happy for ya about your peach fuzz! Beeee-u-tiful
Rest in His loving arms this week. Our prayers will be constant!
Lots of Love,
Astreaea
I’m praying for you and the the rest of the family!
(((BIG hug)))
Amy
Praying for your chemo to be gentle this week as it continues to tackle the “bad guys”, every last one of them. Rest in God to find each one as He has His eye on you. Emma looks so sweet in her picture, what a little miracle she continues to be, and I pray that all results of testing come back excellent.
I hope you find plenty of time to rest this week with all you will be doing. It is one thing you can kinda control and it is so important for your body to have this balance. Sleep like a baby often and feel exceptionally well this week. Rub the Fuzz for me!!Good stuff.
Laurel in Ca.
Heather, Just a quick note to tell you that so MANY people love you and your family SO MUCH. We pray for you and your family and know that God is in charge of all. We love you.
Betty in Oklahoma
Many prayers for your whole family, Heather. Continuing to lift you all up.
Blessings,
Julie
Hi Heather,
WOW, the lyrics are DEEP.
Praying for you.
Marie
I pray for you and Emma everyday!
God Bless,
Angela
Praying for you this week as you bravely endure chemo again.
Praying for you this week… thinking of you often.
You are sooo awesome! I am glad that things went as expected at your daughter’s appointment. I also pray that you will have a restful week despite your circumstances.
Blessings,
Bonita…………….
As always praying for you! Those are powerful lyrics.
Glad that Emma’s appointment went with no surprises!
Praying for you this week and weekend, dear Heather. May God really show off in your week with some laughter and joy!
Love,
holly
Dear Heather…Just want to tell you how happy I am that so many of Minerva’s commenters have met her through you.
Do you really know how amazing you really are?
You are ill and yet you are an encourager to many many people!
Minerva goes for her PET scan this Thursday…Love Terry
what a wonderful picture of emma. she is a beautiful child!
oops, and as usual, PRAYERS for you!!!!! jan
Prayers are with you. Enjoy your time with your family.
I think of you and visist you several times a day.
I will definitely be sending you good vibes on your Chemo days. I too have a full day Chemo next Monday 28th. Once we get some sunshine here I will have to gently spend some time getting some colour on this white head of mine. I think I’m getting used to it a bit. Still haven’t gone out with it uncovered though, haven’t quite been game yet.
Emma looks great. Speaking of labs I must do something about getting mine done and see what my Hb is since my transfusion week before last.
Take Care and may the sunshine on your day.
Lots of love Carolynn xxx
Praising God with you for Emma’s clinic visit. WIll definitely be kicking it up a notch in prayer for chemo days ahead. Thank you for sharing an incredible song with all of us again. Music is sooo important in times of hardship, isn’t it? Love you
Glad to hear things went well with Emma’s appt.
Thanks for the update and definitely will be praying for you this weekend.
Miss Emma is such a beauty! What a sweetheart!
Heather, praying for you always and the rest of your family.
Thinking of ya during Chemo Week…….
REST, REST, REST my friend.
Heather,
Beautiful picture of Emma
I love, love, love Bebo Norman (and Shane & Shane). Thank-you for this song. I hadn’t heard it before. When I first started reading these lyrics, I was thinking it was going to refer to the passage..No weapon formed against you will prosper…and THAT made me think to remind you (again) that nothing the enemy can do is beyond God’s reach. And I am praying that any weapon of sickness from the chemo, God will strike down on your behalf.
Love and prayers,
Michelle
I love this song and I had totally forgotten about it. Thanks for reminding me of such a wonderful song.
Praying for you and your family always!
Ashley
God be with you during chemo week and always. Great news from Emma’s clinic.
The results of the Hammer are lovely to behold.
because of Jesus, Bobbie
I just prayed for you – that you’ll do better on the chemo this time around. My dh had an MRI last week for his heart – he was in the “tube” for 2 hours! I hope your MRI isn’t that long. I covered him with prayer and he did alright. I’ll also pray for you and your future MRI tests.
That is such good news – hair!
God bless you and your family,
Kate
So glad that Emma’s clinic visit went well. Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, especially that the chemo treatment goes smoothly. Take care.
Always praying!
So glad you got some good news before starting chemo this week. Good spirits is definitely a plus! Enjoy your family and focus on feeling good. God bless!
always praying for you…*hugs*
Praying for you Heather
OhMyGosh I love, LOVE, LOVE this Bebo Norman song – he’s one of my favourites
Alice the Brit
Dear Heather,
We haven’t left a comment yet but have been reading your blog for a couple of weeks now. We came to you via Marisa’s blog, who is a “real-life” friend of my family’s. My husband also has a brain tumour, also grade 3, an oligodendroglioma. He’s also on Temodal (at least that the name here in Canada) and is just finishing his last dose of this cycle tonight. He had surgery April 2, radiation+chemo in May-June and now the chemo for the 6-12 months. I think you guys are about the same age, too. Anyways, we’ve been praying for you and were blessed to read some of your entries. So many times we would read a line that so completely resonated with us… “YES!”, she GETS it, that’s SO what we’re feeling/thinking/etc.
Enjoy “the week before”…
Marcelle (+Nate)
I found your blog through another lady’s blog, and I just finished reading your’s and Emma’s stories. I have to say that was a blessing!! Anyone that can read Emma’s story and say “that wasn’t God” is blind!! What an awsome story of how God bless yall over and over. Thanks for sharing your story with me. I am praying for you and your family!
Dear Heather…As you start your chemo tomorrow, we will be praying for you!
Did you know that Minerva has a PET scan tomorrow?….Love Terry
Heather, Just checking in with you. Saying prayers for you .
Smiles and Hugs.
I love that song! I am so glad that God as spoken to you through it. My view of those lyrics have been much different since I have known you. All of you will continue to be in my prayers. God Bless! Melanie
Dear Heather…I am praying for you today.
May the Lord go with you as you start your chemo…Love Terry
Thinkin about you this morning, lifting you up.
Praying for you and thinking of you today. God Bless!
Happy to hear Emma made out well at her appointment!
just wanted to drop in and say hi, and let you know you are being prayed for. thrilled emma grace’s appt went well- and praying for you to have a wonderfully easy week on chemo. lifting you high into heavenly places!
Praying for you today in Colorado! Praying for your strength…the joy of the LORD to be so thick in you today.
Love,
holly
I am glad to hear Emma is doing well, I hope the best for you and your next chemo!
Sweet Heather
I was hoping you would pray for my granddaughter Tirzah and her mom Heatherlee.
As I read her post this morning, I knew you have walked this path. Maybe you have a word of encouragement for her.
http://yarnyenta.blogspot.com/2007/09/of-drashes-and-midnight-tatrums.html
Because of Jesus, Bobbie
Father God be with Heather today as her cemo begins. Give her strength Lord Jesus to make it another day. Protect her good systems and make them stronger so they can combat the stresses and illness that come with cemo. Take the nausea away and give her peaceful sleep and rest that only you can give. Be with the children and with Heather’s husband and annoint them with an extra measure of grace to be and show the love of You to all around them. Father bless this family and keep them close within your arms. Amen.