If we trust in the sovereignty of God, we wrestle our way to peace in the knowledge that if an answer to prayer is for our highest good, the God who loves us will not withhold it
I have been thinking a lot about Gods sovereignty lately. Like I wrote in my last post, I know He is sovereign still. Yet do I really believe that, really? Through this journey I have come to depend on Christ so much, and through that dependence on Him, I find that I am faced point blank with my own weakness. Even my own weakness of doubting His will and His sovereignty.
It comes back full circle.
However, I find that when I am unsure of which way to go or what to do… even when I think He has left me to my own demise, I was the one who turned away. I was the one who started doubting His perfect will for my life. I was the one who doubted my Savior.
He never doubts.
I find that, more so now then ever, I am wrestling my way to peace. I want so badly to be completely and undeniably steadfast in my belief, yet it is a constant daily struggle to find Him.
Yet I don’t stop searching.
When I don’t feel Him, I seek Him even more. When I cant see Him in my circumstances, I pray even harder. When I feel lost, I know He will find me.
I am opened up until I can no longer feel resentment to my current situation.
Still it is a daily battle of my will vs. His sovereignty.
Yet I know His sovereignty will prevail every time.
God knows the whole story of your life because He is the author of your biography. He knows the last chapter, and He thinks you are wonderful…
He knows the story of your life and mine.