Help and peace and joy are here. Your courage will be rewarded. Painful as this time is, you will both one day see the reason of it, and see too that it was not cruel testing, but tender preparation for the wonderful life-work that is ahead of you.
Try to realize that your own prayers are being most wonderfully answered. Answered in a way that seems painful to you, but right now it is the only way.
Success in the temporal world would not satisfy you. Great success, in both the temporal and spiritual worlds, awaits you.
I know you will see this had to be.
I am doing the Beth Moore study “Who Do You Trust” and let me tell you that it is knocking me on my butt. I thought that I trusted God, but really deep down, I don’t. Atleast not to the point that I should.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; -Prov. 3:5
I tend to lean on my own understanding, its human nature to do so. But the scripture above tells me to NOT lean on my own understanding, and to trust in the Lord with all of my heart. Many times I can’t feel Him near me, and during those times I tend to lean on my own understanding. Thoughts of my last days start creeping in, and then I lose all control over my emotions and mind. I know that I have to go through this, I know that it is not about the temporal world, it is about eternity, yet I still doubt, I still mistrust, I still fear.
I am still human.
Then I wonder if I am afraid of death. I mean think about it, none of us wants to die. In our earthly minds it is final. I wont see my children, I wont hug my parents or touch my husband again on earth.
But then I think of the exchange. I think of the after. I think of eternity. I think of opening my eyes and standing before my savior.
I remember my favorite song, At the cross by Hillsong.
And when the earth fades
Falls from my eyes
And You stand before me
I know You love me
I know You love me
I know my reward will be great. I know heaven awaits for me. I know that my Savior has only the purest and best intentions, even if I can’t understand them this side of heaven.
I know that I know that I know.
But it is still hard.
At The Cross - Hillsong
Prayer Request:
I have an MRI tomorrow at Moffit. It is the first one since I stopped taking chemo and I am really anxious about it. Please pray that my nerves would be calm and that fear would leave my mind. Pray for a clean scan and a great doctors visit!
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by CrisannePrayer continues to head your way.
hugs,
Barb
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by BarbGood Morning Heather,
Just want to let you know how much I appreciate your writing, your sharing from the heart, of being real. It is such an encouragement to those of us who also are traveling this path.
As I look back over these last five years, I can see indeed the tender preparation, that through the things we go through, it prepares us for that which He has called us to.
Heather, I will be lifting you to the Lord, as well as your family, it will be part of my daily prayer.
Again, thank you for sharing from the heart, for being real and letting us know, it is ok to be real to!!
I pray for good reports,
Writing for the King,
Paul
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Hey, Heather,
This post brought to mind what I concider to be a “life verse” for me. It is always calming for me and always helps my perspective when I think, quote, meditate on it. Philippians 4:6 is about me and what I must do. Then the Lord follows it with an amazing and comforting promise that always gets me through what ever I am “anxious” about in verse 7. Heather, you and your family are an inspiration to us all and I pray that this helps and comforts you. I praise God for what He is doing in you and through you.
by KentI really like The Message translation of that verse:
Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.
-Philippians 4:7 (The Message)
Thank you so much for sharing it
You got it! ((Hugs)) God Bless!
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by KayHello I was getting allittle worried, I ve been coming by to check on you. I thought about you last month when I was in Tampa on vacation and drove by Moffit several times, I stay in Tampa but spend a ton of time in Clearwater at the ocean, I grew up in Tampa and still have close ties there. I am going back for a week in October and get my last ocean fix until Spring.
by PauletteI will be praying for your visit at Moffit tomorrow.
You are so transparent! Thank you for ministering to me again.
by RoseI am glad you posted, I am sure I among others have been thinking of you. Thank you Heather for sharing your belief and gifts from God. I will be praying and thinking of you and your family.
“Have No Fear…God Is Here”!!!!
by VanessaPraying for God’s peace - which we’ll never understand - but experience when we put our trust in HIM! Feel Him hold you and keep you. May God keep your health - and continue to use you as you tell your story. You are the feet that brings THE GOOD NEWS! Praise Him for you and your ability to be real before the world. Hugs - AmandaB.
by AmandaBGlad to hear from you again I was a little worried.
by BernadetteYou are in my prayers as always.
I am praying Heather! You are a blessing!!!
Hugs,
by ElaineElaine
Heavenly Father, Please be with Heather and her family as they get ready for this MRI. Give them the peace that only you can, protect their hearts and minds from the doubts and fears that the evil one wants them to have. Renew their mind with Your thoughts and with praise to You.
Thank you for Heather, for the example that she has been of Your faithfulness. Thank you for the words You give her that minister to so many people.
I ask this all in Jesus Name!
Amen
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by StacyOh, I will pray for you. I get such strength from your posts and I too, need to remember to trust God. With my husband’s journey with cancer, it has been tough. It only takes me a minute to read your posts and find strength. Thank you!
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by SusieHeather,
You’re right. Trusting IS hard. Some of us (me!!) have to keep relearning the same lessons again and again.
I’m praying for your MRI and for peace.
You are loved with an everlasting love!
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by LyricBlessings Heather
I’ll be praying for you for MRI visit, that fears and nerves will be in HIS HANDS as you lay and rest AT THE CROSS…beautiful as always when you share from your heart &
by Peggyyour truthful words are inspiring…helps us to realize that TRUSTING isn’t easy for any of us in temporal or spiritual, in physical or emotional…but Christ has overcome the grave, so our victories are in His Hands and He never fails. May God be with you and go before you & may His balm of Gilead cover you from head to toe. For His Grace is sufficient!!! Wanta hear a victory shout! &
a favorable report!!!
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Dear Heather, I was so glad to see your blog in bold letters on my Blogger list and know you had made an entry! I too was getting concerned.
You have my prayers and I will ask my small group fellowship to pray for you when we meet this evening.
God Bless!
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I’m praying for you, Heather!
…wonderful song choice!
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by DebPraying for you Heather!
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by RosePraying for a clean scan!
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by RacerYou said that so well Heather. I think we are all guilty of the very same emotions. I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers…and especially for your upcoming scan results.
Take care.
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by SherryI will be praying for your scan tomorrow. I know how scary that first post chemo scan is! I am going to have my two-year post chemo scan in October, and it is still scary. Somehow, even though it is scary, I have grown in trust toward the Lord. I think it is a process and that none of us will fully attain it until we reach heaven. This is our training ground. God is ever so faithful, even when we are faithless, for He cannot deny Himself.
I know you will be just fine!
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by Gina DunnHey girl,
Just wanted you to know that I thought of you today about your MRI prior to reading this post of yours.
much love,
k-
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by Gayle @ thewestiecrew…and PLEASE let us know your results ASAP!
by marthapraying, Heather….
Hugs,
Mary
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Praying for you, my friend! I wonder at your words…if you do not trust Him to the point where you should, then who indeed does? I am so proud of how you do trust and love Him…it encourages this sister in CO so much!’
You are a blessing!! Praying all day tomorrow.
Love,
Holly
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Oh, Heather… I have been following you for some time now and your outpouring here fills me with such kinship.
by Regina Clare JaneI will pray for you and for a good dr. visit.
How does one trust so willingly and fully… it is hard indeed. But we are all here for each other, we need to be… and I hope that helps a little.
Ahhh… Trusting God has been the theme of my life for about a year now. I always thought I trusted God - and I did in many ways - but God showed me last year how much I worried even when I said I was trusting Him. Sort of like saying “I know You can and will take care of this” and then nervously watching over His shoulder saying “so, when are You going to do it? And how? Huh?” It’s been such an amazing thing to learn in a deeper way after walking with Him for so long. I think I’ll want to check out the study! Is it a book?
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