Holy Cow..

I have wanted to post for the past, oh month, but holy cow has it been one thing after another in the George house. Emma has been sick for the past two weeks with the flu, which required an over night visit in ICU. Then, of course, I was the lucky recipient of said Influenza A along with a peptic ucler (dont take ibuprofen before bed for months.. trust me) which caused me to vomit huge amounts of blood all night long (Too much info, I know). Since then it has trickled itself down our family line one by one. Between the coughing, sneezing, vomiting, high temps and other sundry bodily fluids, we are all home (Except Mark, who went to work), doped up on Tylenol and cough suppressants.

Oh, and Lysol is staying in business thanks to us.

I am finally feeling “better” but not up to par by any means. I am suppose to see my doctor this week to schedule an endoscopy, which I am not looking forward too, but throwing up blood was not pleasant. I woke up in the middle of the night to a massive stomach-ache which can only be described as if someone was ripping my insides out of my body, literally… you can picture the rest.

I am so sorry that I have neglected my blog. It seems like forever since I wrote here. It’s not for lack of things God is doing in my life.. because in the last couple of weeks there have been so very many things I want to tell you about.. it is just that I lack the energy to actually put them in a blog post that actually makes sense.. I have really enjoyed Crazy Love and have so much to tell you about it. I am on chapter 5 (you can follow the chapter videos on the Crazy Love link that I provided above) which talks about lukewarm Christianity.

It has really rocked my spiritual life, especially this question:

Are you willing to say to God that He can have whatever He wants? Do you believe that wholehearted commitment to Him is more important than any other thing or person in your life? Do you know that nothing you do in this life will ever matter, unless it is about loving God and loving the people that He has made?

That means loving the person that (you fill in the blank.) You see, the bible doesnt give us excuses not to love someone. It gives us permission to put boundaries up, but it does NOT give us permission not to love. And to love someone that has hurt you, boy it is HARD. Ask me how I know. But this past few weeks I have really focused on the above question and the impact that unforgiveness has had on my SPIRITUAL life, because that is what really matters in the end. Is my spiritual life pleasing to my heavenly father, and am I willing to lay everything down for Him… including my hurt and unforgiveness.

Do you know that nothing you do in this life will ever matter, unless it is about loving God and loving the people that He has made?

What is your answer?

(Btw, I highly encourage you to pick up a copy of Crazy Love at your local Christian bookstore. It will change your spiritual life.)