Tomorrow is my MRI. I would be lying if I said the same fear I had 2 years ago at this time wasnt still there. I would be lying if I said I didn’t still question why I must go through this. I would be lying to you if I said that this is all a walk in the park for me.
I would be lying if I told you I didn’t believe this is unfair.
This song represents all of my heart at this moment. It speaks of my constant questions, fears, longings.
Honestly, I am afraid. And honestly, I know I shouldn’t be.
But Honestly, He knows I’m human, and He knows that I have fears. He knows my heart. He knows my dreams.
He knows me inside and out.
He knows that I am scared to death that I only have 2 years left – even though I know only He knows the number of my days. He knows that I wake up each morning thankful to be alive…yet I go to bed every night and pray for one more day.
He knows that in the moments that I am alone, I fear. I fear the tumor coming back. I fear the look on my husbands face when he sees the look in my eyes. I fear the doctor coming in and telling me that “Its Back”.
I fear the hurt in my children’s hearts.
Honestly, I fear.
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i’m not afraid to be honest with You today
the only thing i’m sure of is You
i never knew about grace
before You called my name
before You touched my face with Your hand
even when i’m falling, confused, and i’m frightened
and my faith is afraid to be real
You, You know me; help me to want You, help me to want You
You, You know me; help me to love You, help me to love You
i’m not alone in this fight, but i still want to run
You are the rock i say i stand on
i never knew about love
before Your healing touch
You always hold that open door
even when i’m angry, i’m hurt, and i’m broken,
won’t You help me to fall on my knees?
You, You know me; help me to want You, help me to want You
You, You know me; help me to love You, help me to love You
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HE KNOWS ME…
My MRI is at 8:30am tomorrow morning. I will get the results right after. If you would like to leave your prayers in my comments, or just say that you are praying, that would do my heart so much good. Thank you in advance for praying, and for continuing to follow my journey. You will never know how much it means to me.
I will be praying for your peace and comfort, but I will begin today by thanking God for you and all that He has brougth to my life through your writing. I will thank him for your healing, for your life, for your sharing your heart. I believe God is God and He will be with all of us, especially you tomorrow!
much love,
Sweetie
I am praying for you. Praying for a clear report. Praying for peace. Praying for the comfort of the Holy Spirit to wrap around you. Praying for your family’s peace.
Praying for you often today and tomorrow as you come to mind. Deut. 31:8 – my life verse.
Oh, Father… I pray for my dear sister. I speak peace into her heart. And peace that will flood her mind and quiet her thoughts. Peace that will rest over her children and strengthen her husband.
The sweet peace that only you can give by your most holy presence. May is wash over her, overtaking her whole body. Let it renew her strength. Rebuild her.
Oh, my faithful Father, you are so good. So faithful. Full of grace and ever so near to her right now, as I type this.
Show yourself strong to her as she trusts you. And waits on you. That your glory may be shown through her.
I love you God and I love my dear sister… thank you for the kinship we share in your family.
I thank you that you are faithful to perform miracles.
In Your Son’s Mighty Name I pray, Amen.
Through Christ you can do this! You will do this! Love you!
Dear Lord God, Almighty. I pray that Heather would feel You with her as she has this MRI. That you would cast out the fear in her heart and replace it with peace. The peace that only comes from You. Father I pray that you would heal Heather completely, lengthen her days. May she see and enjoy her children and her children’s children. Lord, let her grow old with her husband and enjoy the golden years together. Peace Lord peace, to Heather and her family. In Christ’s Holy Name.
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I will remember to pray for you, Heather, as I pray for my husband who’s journey has so closely mirrored yours… including an MRI tomorrow. LORD, calm our anxious hearts.
Heather- I am praying for your peace today and will pray for you tomorrow morning. I praise Jesus for your recovery and for all the people that you have touched through this walk.
Hey girl! I’m praying for you and will continue to pray for you.
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Hi Heather,
I know you’re getting blasted here. LOL! But that’s so precious. I’m praying for you as I pray for my daughter. She’s 15 and just got her first MRI after two brain surgeries and radiation. All clear! I understand that fear…God has you in his hands.
And you live in Sarasota! I grew up there, and my family still lives there. I miss it at times, esp. Siesta Key Beach.
Heather, I am lifting you up to our God, Jehovah Rapha. He is the God who heals us of our ailments, troubles and fears. May His peace be with you tomorrow and in the days to come. 2 Timothy 1 says that God has not given us the spirit of fear, but the spirit of power, of courage and resolution, to meet difficulties and dangers; the spirit of love to him, which will carry us through opposition. And the spirit of a sound mind, quietness of mind.
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Hi Heather, I’m coming over from the Woman Inspired Conference. You are in my prayers & I will especially be praying for you as you go to your MRI tomorrow. We can rest in the knowledge that God is sovereign and all that He does is for our good and His glory!! He is a great God!!!
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I’m praying for you too. Saw your comments at Natalie’s session at #awi.
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Certainly praying for strength and courage for you and your family.
Will be praying for you to have an unexplainable countenance of peace tomorrow for your MRI and for splen-diff-erous results!
Praying for your peace and that that stupid tumor NEVER come back.
Praying all day, feel assured all is well..
I will be praying for peace and comfort from the Lord, that he will be right there with you Heather! Be assured that you will be surrounded in Love from all of us.
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I have been reading your blog for ages Heather and you are inspiration to me! I am praying for your now and will be praying for your tommorrow that Gods perfect will is done. I am sending you so much love and hugs – bless you beautiful girl!!
Jenny from Perth in Western Australia
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Heather,
I am praying for you, your family and the doctor. Praying for peace, wisdom, and good news. Thank you for sharing the lyrics and song with us. It captures much that is in my heart.
hugs and prayers,
Trueda
Heather,
I follow your blog but have never commented before. Just wanted to say that I have prayed for your MRI tomorrow, and I will continue to pray. Praying for His peace to rest upon you IN THE MIDST of your fear, praying for perfectly wonderful results, and praying that He will continue to receive glory through the journey He is leading you on.
blessings,
Pam
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Praying for peace and strength through all of this. May the hugs of your family seem tighter than ever tomorrow! Wish I could add one to the count.
Love and prayers,
Allison
P.S. I wrote you several months ago about potty training my autistic 5-year-old and I am excited to share that we are in big girl panties with no accidents since 2 weeks ago! YAY!
Dear Heather,
I will absolutely be thinking of and praying for you tomorrow morning. I can only imagine how scary each and every MRI is! However, it’s 2 years later and look how great you’re doing (: When I had an MRI to look for a pituitary tumor several years ago, I spent the time in the MRI maching thinking of my DH and my 3 little girls. I thought no matter what happens, I love them all more than anything and I know they love me. Sickness could never change that. I prayed too that I would be able to accept whatever the results were and boy did the Lord keep me calm during it. It turned out not to be tumor but I still reflect on the overwhelming love I felt while inside that stupid tube! I’m expecting to hear great results from yours tomorrow Heather. Kick back tonight, relax and do something fun with your DH and beautiful little kiddos! They love you so much and man are there a lot of people on this site who are praying for you too!!!
Love Molly (:
Praying for the best possible results, Heather, and that you will be around for many,many years.
xoxo
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Heather, I am at a loss for words when I have to leave you a comment. In times when we need to encourage you, you end up encouraging us. You have blessed so many of us. Thanks for sharing your life. I will surely keep you in my prayers, the way I always have. Try to read this scripture..Isaiah 41:10. It helps me deal with many things. We all love you. – Danielle
I’m praying for you Heather, for a clear report and for you to be able to remain calm and not so worrisome prior to your MRI results. You will be in my thoughts until I read your results.
Chrystal
As ALWAYS – praying. Mucho grande love!!! Mishka
We are praying for you. I know, many times, many days I don’t understand why God makes the decisions He does, but I do know He is our Heavenly Father and He loves us beyond compare. I know that no matter what happens, He will walk with you & comfort you. He will walk with & comfort your family. He is an amazing God that will never leave us or forsake us. I pray for His peace & rest for you & your family tonight. Many nights I hold on to Proverbs 3:21-26, where He promises sweet sleep to the righteous. http://bit.ly/3kULL9
I am praying for you. Your honesty is so encouraging to me. My trials are different, but I forget to be honest with myself, with others, with God. I am praying for peace, for clarity, and for healing to continue.
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Praying for you!
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Praying for you, dear Heather… praying for God’s healing touch, peace and for a good report, in the name of Jesus.
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Dear Jesus, I am on my knees for Heather right now and her MRI tomorrow. I am pryaing for absolute and complete healing from any and all disease. I am praying and believing for wonderful results. I am also praying for peace that passes all understanding for Heather and her family. Be with her in a way that she will undoubtedly know You’re there.
Thanks you for the wonderful testimony and witness she is for You.
Amen
Our dear heavenly Father, please be with Heather and her family as she undergoes tomorrow’s MRI. We pray for calm and comfort and claim a wonderful result and healing for her. In your Son’s Holy Name, Amen.
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Dear Heavenly Father,
I lift Heather and her family to you Lord. You know her fears, you know her heart. I just want to say thank You for continued protection over Heather and her family. I pray for the MRI to be clear. I pray this all in your mighty son Jesus’ name – Amen!
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Praying for you!
Dear Heather,
I will be praying for you, I work early in the evening and will be awake while you are just waking up,
Marie
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Heather, I’m standing in agreement with the others here, praying that the peace that passes all understanding will engulf your entire being and carry you through your MRI. I’m praying for a good report and that you may walk in health and healing for many, many more years.
I do understand how much the prayers of others–even faceless strangers on the internet–mean. I’m fighting stage IV metastatic breast cancer and I, too, have been told that two to three years is what I should expect, statistically speaking. Well, I am not a statistic, I am not a number! I am an individual human being who is a child of God and only He knows when my time on this earth is up. I’m not going anywhere until HE decrees it, and then I am only going home.
God bless you, dear. Fight on–and always remember that you’re not fighting alone.
Love in Him,
Loretta in GA
Praying for Him to hold you and your family close, as the Shepherd who gathers his flock to a safe place. Praying through the evening and night tonight….be assured you are being lifted up.
“Whoever falls from God’s right hand will be caught up
in His left.”
Dear Father God, I come to You with a thankful heart for our dear sister Heather. Thank You for her servant spirit and her willing heart. Lord, I ask that You come and give her Your perfect peace. I pray for Your healing hand to be on her and Lord, I speak life and not death! I ask that You come and give her miracles tomorrow. I ask that You bestow Your grace and mercy upon her and her family. Please Lord come and fill her heart with Your presence Lord. Please Lord come.
I will continue to pray and interceed for healing, signs and wonders.
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I will start at 8:30 tonight! Keep the faith.
Pam in GA.
I am most certainly praying for you, dear Heather!
Love and prayers for peace and rest and good news!
Holly
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Heather, I am praying for you, today and always.
Heather, I recently found your blog and am inspired by your faith. You most certainly will be in my prayers throughout today and specifically tomorrow morning. Be still and know HE is your God. He holds your every moment and is more than enough than your every need. I recently read this thought and it really ministered to me: “Either I am everything that I say I am and will do everything I say I will do, or why would you bother to serve Me at all?” I encourage you to let Him be your everything. Blessings!
Praying for you!!!!!!!!
Hugs and prayers from Northern Ireland.
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Lord,
I lift up my dear sister Heather in her time of testing. Surround her with Your peace and confidence as she goes through this MRI tomorrow morning. Give her the assurance that the results will be according to Your perfect plan and that everything that touches her is sifted through Your love. Thank You that You hold her and her family in the palm of Your hand and that You have promised to give them a hope and a future. Satan would attempt to steal their peace, but he is no match for Your sovereign power and love, almighty God! Pour out Your grace upon them!
In Jesus’name I pray,
Amen
Adding my prayers to everyone.
I just read this so they are post MRI prayers, but they have to help a bit!
I lost my dear friend to brain cancer less than a year ago. Reading your story along the way was so comforting as she was no longer able to really communicate what she was feeling/thinking.
I hope knowing that we are all reading and praying will bring you comfort tomorrow as you recieve nothing but good news!
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I am praying for you. You are such an inspiration to me. I’ll be checking in tomorrow for what I am sure will be good news.