Whatever, Lord…

September 28, 2009 By

prayinghands2

{This post was originally written on August 26, 2007}

I’m sitting here, trying to think about how to put my heart into words, but the only thing that comes out is “Whatever, Lord.”

Whatever you need to do, do it. Give me the grace and the strength to fight this, because right now I have none of both. I don’t want to do this any more; I don’t want to feel sick and tired anymore. I am so sick of being sick. If this is what I will feel like for the next year, you have to give me the strength to combat this, because I can’t do this on my own strength. I know you have a plan, and your plan is perfect, but does it have to be so hard? Does it have to be so tiring, draining and so endless? I know you love me, I know that… but right now I need to feel it. I need to feel your hand on my heart, your touch on my soul. You promised you would never leave me, and I believe that, I really do…..
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Comments

  1. Kristine McGuire says:
    September 28, 2009 at 8:50 am

    Thank you for sharing such a personal struggle.

  2. Lisa Whittle says:
    September 28, 2009 at 9:37 am

    Heather…
    I was going to write you and let you know about my blog post, but you found it before I had the chance. :) Yes, girlfriend, you inspired me last night as I was reading over the piece one last time before it posted. I love your entry this week, and I am telling everyone about it so they will come and read for themselves. I want to read more about your journey with this, so I plan on looking around your blog to see what I can find. Just know that your “whatever, Lord” will inspire many this week to say the same. Thank you for letting God use you in this way, even in your struggle. It’s beautiful.

    Much love and care!

  3. Mary says:
    September 28, 2009 at 9:49 am

    I have prayed for you and your family for years, Heather. I hope that our prayers will help to carry you during the difficult times. Please know how much we all care for you as we follow your story.
    .-= Mary´s last blog ..A New Friend =-.

  4. Lynn Cowell says:
    September 28, 2009 at 9:30 pm

    Heather,
    Thank you so much for perspective. My life is probably the hardest it has ever been, but tonight, you brought perspective.
    Thank you for being real.
    Lynn
    .-= Lynn Cowell´s last blog ..A Little Help From My Friends =-.

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