These past few weeks I have been just trying to stay afloat. My mind has been traveling to places it shouldn’t, and I have had a hard time with the how’s and why’s. I have found myself fearful of the next MRI (Dec. 9th) and I really don’t know why. I know in my heart that He is already there and he knows the outcome…. it is just hard not having that control.
I hear these words over and over in my heart: “Be still and know”…. but my mind wont stay still long enough to let what I know sink in.
So, if you would, say a prayer for me. Pray that I would have peace that passes all understanding and that satan would have no control over my thoughts. Pray that I would go in confidence to my Dec 9th MRI, and that His will would be done- not mine.
That is really hard for me to type… His will, not mine.
For someone who has to be in control of everything… having no control over this is really hard.
“True courage is not the absence of fear – but the willingness to proceed in spite of it.”
Edited to add: When I came home today, my daughter told me to read her blog. She makes me so very proud. I didn’t realize that this was her biggest fear… My family is the reason I fight so hard, I love each an every one of them more than words can say. Now go read her post: Picks Of Hope