(This post was originally written in 2oo7. It speaks to the heart of my post yesterday and when I read it this morning, it spoke to my heart again.)
Have you ever thought about that? Jesus wept. In the midst of his heartache, in the midst of his impending death. He wept. He cried out visibly to his Father, praying that the cup would be taken from his hand.
When our children are hurting, scared or tired, they weep. We wrap our arms around them and tell them that it is okay, that it will get better, that they are loved. We rush to their sides, and attend to their needs, because thats what mothers do. After all, these are our babies.
Yet, when we, as moms, wives and women hurt, we hold it in. We tell ourselves that we must push those emotions aside, because after all we are moms, wives and women. We hold back the tears and put one foot in front of the other, day after day. When something in our lives touches us in a painful way, we feel as if we cannot, or should not show that emotion. We are under the impression that strength is equal to control.
It is not.
One of the most amazing scriptures in the bible ironically is the shortest. Jesus Wept. He knew he had no control over what was about to happen to him. He cried out to His Father, like your child cries out to you.
Its okay for you to cry out to your father. Its okay for you lay flat on the floor when the world seems to be too heavy and weep. I learned long ago, sitting in my living room while Emma waited for her second chance at life in a hospital miles away, that God is not only big enough to handle my anger, He loves me enough to do so.
I’m fearfully and wonderfully made.
That includes my anger, my hurt, my selfishness, my pride. That includes my faults, each and every one of them.
Dont assume that because you dont share your heart, He doesnt already know the intimate details it contains.
absolutely beautiful. the lord is good and hears our weeps when we hold them in but it’s necessary to let it out. lovely post lady♥
Such a beautiful post! I love Third Day and I love this song. He paid the price for it ALL on the cross and desires that we cry out to Him while in the depths of our pain. Standing with you in continued prayer for Emma!
Oh Heather!
That miracle baby you’ve been praying with me about for years? We lost it! I don’t understand….how/why would God give something only to take it away? Yes, I am angry! And I’ve been too afraid to admit it to anyone. Thank you so much for reviving this post! I needed it.
What a beautiful post, Heather. Thank you for the reminder that beautiful reminder. We have to move beyond that place of thinking we have it all under control by holding in our emotions. Continuing to pray for your sweet Emma.
Lovely. And a reminder we all need to hear. Daily!
Such an encouraging reminder that God holds our hearts with such tenderness! I am always filled with peace when I remember just how vast is God’s love for me, his daughter created full of emotions. I am equally grateful to find grace and mercy as I allow Him to tenderly teach me how to experience my emotions while allowing Him the opportunity to address them and work ALL things together for good!
When your physical is at its weakest, the LORD is strongest in you. Faith is suffering.