That quote is so very true, only Christ controls the weather… but he gives me the freedom and choice to adjust my sails. I can adjust them slightly and go down with the ship or I can go full force and ride the storm out until the end.
I choose to ride this storm with my sails full force.
The last couple days have been really rough. We have seen some of the effects of the seizures/swelling and it is going to be a long hard road. The neurologist, when asked if this was the Emma we were going to take home stated that she had “significant changes on her MRI and it possibly was, but only time would tell”. I truly hate that phrase..”only time will tell.”
She most likely is going to go from here to a residential rehabilitation center, but “only time will tell.”
She has aphasia, but “only time will tell” if she is going to recover her speech. I understand from my neurosurgery how very difficult it is not to be able to communicate. I really believe that she has words, but she just cant get them out so she just cries.
She doesn’t have purposeful eye movement, but “only time will tell”.
Did I mention how much I hate that phrase.
But I know that my Savior can move mountains if He so chooses. I have seen Him work miracles in her life.
And even if he chooses not to this time….
He is still God. He still loves her more than I ever can.
He holds her in the palm of His hand..
and He will not let her go…
No, He will not. He is going to bear you up…and He is going to move these mountains. I’m counting on Jesus for you, and for Emma. He won’t move, friend. He won’t leave you. Love and prayers continuing, Holly
I am praying for your family and your precious Emma.
Dear Heather,
I can only say Amen to your beautiful words that Jesus has your Emma in the palm of His Hand and He will not let her go, no matter what. He alone knows what He is doing and we must believe it is for our best good, no matter how much it hurts. I pray that He will continue to move mountains for you and your family.
Hold tight to that truth Heather, He will not leave you for a moment. I will continue to pray for sweet Emma as this must be so confusing for her and her recovery and asking God to continue to carry you and Mark and the kids in the palm of His hand too. My heart aches for all of you and if “only time will tell” is the best you can hope for right now, let’s hope time will tell you soon. He knows the exact moment. Love you Heather.
Love an Hugs, Laurie
“He holds her in the palm of His hand and He will not let her go” – AMEN!!!
I’m praying for Emma and your family.
Still praying for sweet Emma and her precious family.
Your strength through this time is overwhelming to me. I know it’s all from the Lord, but still seems so overwhelming. I am praying for you all.
JoAnn
Hugs and prayers for you all.
Oh Heather, my heart continues to ache for your sweet family. Thank you for continuing to share your heart. Your sweet Emma is in my prayers.
XO*Tricia
oh…..such a heavy load….God must be planning to uphold you in a very powerful way.
((((hugs))))
Mary
I love to rub bloggy shoulders with powerful women of faith. You’re head and heart are in the right place and that’s a beautiful thing. Thanks for letting us share your journey.
You and your sweet girl are in my prayers.
I am at a loss for words. I only have heart-felt cries to God for Emma and your family.
Heather, thank you for continuing to share your heart. This morning Ps 68 kept coming to mind…Praise the Lord; praise God our Savior! For each day He carries us in His arms. A sweet reminder of where you are – where Emma is right this very moment.
Praying. Praying. Praying.
This phrase, in the palms of his hands, has become very real to me over the past month. I have clung to it.
He surely does have your Emma there also.
“Would a woman forget her nursing child, and not have compassion on the son of her womb? Though they forget, I never forget you. “See, I have inscribed you on the palms of My hands; your walls are always before Me. Yeshayahu (Isaiah)49:15-16″
I cannot fathom enduring the days that you are living and am again, as always, encouraged and hopeful because of your courage and your hope. I offer this prayer:
Father God, your grace and mercy is more than we know. I thank you for your love and your constant presence and ask that you be ever present with Emma through this trial. I ask that you cradle her close to your heart, that you will hold her in your ever comforting arms. I pray for Heather and Mark that you would continue to infuse them with strength and courage, faith and hope. I pray for all of Emma’s family that you would bless them and keep them. I lift up Emma’s physician’s, nurses and rehab staff to you and ask that you would give them wisdom, discernment, and a loving heart to guide Emma through recovery, whatever you have deemed that recovery to be.
Father God, this family has blessed so many with their endless faith through so many storms. I pray that you would bless them. Keep them. Hold them.
In the glorious name of Jesus, Amen.
Again you write words of wisdom.
I think one day I will be in Barnes and Noble and a book signing will be going on.When I get to the table it will be Heather signing her book about God healed her from cancer and Emma’s story of healing.
Dear Heather and family
Let our prayers be the extra strength in your sails.
I pray that in all times you will remember to praise His Holy Name … it may not change Emma’s circumstances but it will shift your heart to a place of tranquility and will give you the peace you need to move forward in the direction God knows you must move.
When times get tough in my own time and space … I remind myself … “pause to praise” … and it’s amazing how much better I can breathe … it gives me the foothold I need to adjust my attitude, or emotions, or thinking so I can be all God needs me to be for the situation.
Blessings for strength, peace, assurance and extra measures of comfort.
(((HUGS)))
Heather – my heart aches for you, yet I know it is only a tiny prick compared the massive amount of pain you must be feeling. I will keep you and your sweet girl in my prayers. May you feel the sort of healing that only the Great Physician can provide. I’m so sorry you and your family have to go through this.
heather,
though we’ve never met, i have been following your blog for quite some time. i have felt your pain, rejoiced with you, cried with you and most of all, i’ve been praying for you. i am praying for your sweet emma, and that God would grant her and your sweet family much grace and the peace that passes all understanding. i pray that wherever this current season finds you that you will indeed let God direct your ship and that you will continue to set your sails to “ride out the storm”.
praying for you,
~patty r.
Oh, how we are praying for a miracle. Please know that the Lord has all of you in the palms of His hands and is cradling all of you. Thank you for the updates.
Thank you so much for the update. I am fervently praying for your sweet baby. And for you and your husband and your other children. Please feel the love of all your blog family.
“Let the beloved of the Lord rest secure in Him, for He shields him all day long, and the one the Lord loves rests between His shoulders.” Deuteronomy 33:12
May Emma and your family find rest between His shoulders during this very hard time.
Praying for you.
I have tears in my eyes. I am amazed by the strength the Lord has given your family. I pray for y’all daily. We love you and will not stop praying. “My Savior, he can move the mountains. My God is mighty to save, He is mighty to save.”
Bless your sweet precious heart, Heather. Nothing is too hard for our God,and He does love us so. Praying for His healing touch ~ Love and Hugs ~
And He will not let YOU go. My heart hurts for you and your family…just know you’re surrounded by prayer.
Our Lord is a miracle working Lord and He will work miracles for Emma and you and your family. Underneath are the everlasting arms. My fervent prayers continue for you and your precious little one! Maria
Thank you for the update…… I have tears in my eyes. Wish I could carry some of the pain for you. I can’t, but Jesus can and will. Continuing to pray – won’t stop! {{HUGS}}
Praying for your sweet Emma.
Yes, He holds Emma in the palm of His hand and will not let go. When you find it hard to hold on, just reach out and grab the hem of His garment. He is right there. Continually praying!
I’ve found your blog through (in)courage, and continue to be amazed and humbled by your faith in the midst of storms. One of my favorite verses in John 11:35 “Jesus wept.” I hope you feel like you can cry–and know that our God is crying with you–that you don’t always have to be so super strong. It’s easy to get caught up in the caring of your little girl, but please take care of yourself, too!
Oh dearest Heather, my eyes filled with tears after reading this post. I have been praying for Emma’s recovery, for you, and your family. The burden of this is so great and I am so sorry for you all. I’m sure the last few weeks have been especially hard. Sweet Emma, I know God is holding you in His hand and that the outcome is according to His will but I am praying very fervently for your healing. I am so sorry that you gave to go through this. Heather, I am amazed by your strength and warmed by your humility. Emma couldn’t have a more wonderful mother, you are a perfect fit and I’m sure she knows that. My heart is heavy tonight for all of you and I pray that God will continue to strengthen your hearts. God bless you beautiful Emma and you Heather as you continue on this journey.
Molly
I have not commented in some time but pray for you often….
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ohhhhh man. How are YOU doing, mama? Are you okay?
Can I do anything?
xoxoxo
You are such a strong child of God. Heather, we’ll just continue our prayers for Emma and your whole family.
He will never forsake or leave you….Amen…..stay strong in the Lord and the power of His might….again…I continue to pray for all…
Continued prayers for your little girl.
My daughter was admitted to vanderbilt this week with ascendin parylisis. On Sunday she was fine and tuesday night she couldn’t walk. Yet,even this completely unknown trial you are on my heart daily. I sit in this hosp room wondering how she is and if you are as frustrated with no answers as I am. Still praying!!!
Hi Heather,
You and your family are such an encouragement to me and so many others as you continue to endure in this trial of faith. I am so sorrow that this road has been so long an arduous, but am trusting that Christ will bring it to His perfect good (Rom 8:28-29). We have our entire church praying for you at Refuge Calvary Chapel and post all of your updates on our prayer chain. Please know that Emma, you and Mark and the rest of the family are genuinely loved by many whom you have never even met. Our hearts are deeply burdened for you as we entrust your daily provision to our loving savior.
Please give my love to Mark.
Grace & peace,
Ray
Emma, you and your family remain in my prayers. Thank you for sharing in your story.
Odd thought I know but I wonder if any of the disciples looked at one another in the hours between the crucifixion and resurrection morn and say “did He mean it?, will He come back?” and did anyone manage a smile and reply ” only time will tell…” I pray for you and yours that God will bless you abundantly in His time.
I pray for your princess daily… please let me know if you EVER need to talk. My daughter suffered a stroke due to her heart condition in September and ended up with severe aphasia and apraxia of speech. We are 7 months later now and still working on talking, having 40 words back. I would love to talk and support you guys when things calm down! vegaangel82 (at) yahoo (dot) com
Prayers and love…