……..I’ve dropped anchor in Your promises and I am holding on……
-Steven Curtis Chapman
Emma is now re-intubated. We are no closer to an answer than when we began this journey almost seven weeks ago…
But He is in control.
“He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your fathers had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD” – Deuteronomy 8:3
“Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.”
– I Corinthians 15:58
“No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead…” – Philippians 3:13
“And above all these put on love…And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts…And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly…with thankfulness in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.” – Colossians 3:14-17
In my quiet time this morning I was reading Mark 9:14-24. It is the story of the father who asks Jesus to help his son who is possessed. In verse 22 the man says to Jesus “If you can do anything, take pity on us and help us”. Jesus replied “If I can? Everything is possible for him who believes.” When Jesus had healed his son of the evil spirit that possessed him, the father said “Lord I believe! Help my unbelief!”
The part that stuck out to me the most is Jesus’ response “If I can?“… How arrogant are we not to trust in our Creator.. I know that in these past 6+ weeks that we have been in ICU, I have doubted that He has a plan for all of this mess. I have been looking at the situation Emma is in and trying to fix it myself. I have in essence been saying that I “believe” He is in control, and He is “working all things out for Emma’s good”, but yet do I really believe that? Have I really given her, yet again, fully to Him?
He tells me to “Be still, and watch me at work”, yet I am constantly trying to solve all of this on my own. I am looking ahead at all of the “could be’s” and not what is here now.
In essence, I am trying to fix her..
Only He can fix her.
So, here I am Lord. I give her to you yet again. I am letting go of my “Isaac’s” hand and waiting for you to provide.
You are in control…
POWERful thoughts, Heather. I think everyone can relate at one time or another. Your words are timely for me right now; thank you for the precious reminder!
“EVERYTHING is possible for him who believes!”
Our God is ABLE!!!
I surrender all.
I am with you in heart and prayer.
Here is a song that I wrote when I wanted to control things for my daughter and I felt like I was losing it.
My soul finds rest in God alone. (repeat as many times as necessary to get to a place of peace.)
Why so downcast O my soul
Put your hope In God alone
He’s a redeemer, He is a healer
He has the answer to all of my questions and…
He is in control
He is God alone
God of the heavens
God of the earth
Sovereign, Majestic and Awesome in wonders is He
sending you love and prayers.
Cheryl
Oh, sweet Heather. I am praying for you and your Emma-girl tonight…… I pray for faith-strength for you; like the lady that reached out and touched Jesus’ robe in the crowd-That kind of faith-strength…..Just reach out, He’s right there.
My prayers continue and I am in awe of your strength, wisdom and faith.
Oh Heather … {{{Hugs}}}
I saw a quote the other day that said … “All I have seen, teaches me to trust the Creator with all I have not seen.” — Ralph Waldo Emerson
Looking forward to the day that your faith becomes your sight!
All God’s best,
Tina
Isaiah 43
Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you.
I have called you by name; you are mine.
When you go through the deep waters,
I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
You will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
You will not be burned up;
The flames will not consume you.
For I am the Lord, your God,
The Holy one of Israel, your Savior.
We continue to pray for Emma and all of your family. You have become part of us and we love you.
Heather, continuing to pray for your sweet family. Keep your eyes to God. He is our great physician! Praise Him even in trial!!!!
Kenton & I are thinking of you guys & praying for you. Love your heart. Love your realness, Lioness.
You can still give her to God and pray that he uses you, the doctors, nurses, etc. To be His TOOLS to carry out His will. But you know that. It was good to see you today, but I’d have much rather you not be there, KWIM?? LMK what I can do. I will see you next week, my friend. Hopefully there will be ANSWERS by then. And tell the Clinical Leader that you want FRAN!! Sarah M. is awesome, too. Lauren, when she gets back (days). Sarah L. and Katie B. are also awesome day people. I will lift all of you in prayer until Emma is singing her way through the halls again!! <3 I love you. Thank you for saying Good Morning to me in the breezeway.
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How are you today lovely? Still praying. Wish I lived close, ’cause I’d visit, even though I don’t know you. No one should have to be in this alone. Sending you love.
Thinking of you still today – and praying. Wondering how your day went… guess I will text you. I’m thinking… you ARE closer than you were seven weeks ago, you just don’t have the answer YET. That is the only difference. The answer is there, many things have been ruled out. Meanwhile, Emma does what she does best: she hangs on and she perseveres. She’s a lot like her mama. <3
Praying for your beautiful family here. I am in awe of you- thank you for sharing your strengths and weaknesses. Our God has great plans for that little girl (and her momma!).
Take care and let His Peace hold and comfort you.
Blessings my friend,
Jennifer
Hi Heather. I am prayer for you and your family now at 4:40pm Pacific time and I will continue to pray.
Gods blessing and covering over Emma and your family.
Erika
JEHOVAH-ROPHE… God who heals… Exodus 15:22-26
I’ve been reading your blog for over a year. You have such a beautiful, strong family. I will continue to keep you all in my prayers. May god be with you.
“The eternal God is thy refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms…” Deut 33:27
Praying for you today!
I have been reading your blog for several years now, marveling at your faith and your strength. Praying for little Emma and for you and for your entire family.
Praying for your family now…Jesus please be near.
Tears.
*hugs*
I’m sorry.
xo,
Darcy
Heather, My heart is aching for you and I right now will kneel and bring you before the One Who’s heart understands, Who’s heart loves with a love without end, Who gives the peace that passeth all understanding. May He hold you so very, very close.
Oh Heather, I just read your twitter update.
Father, I ask that you wrap your loving arms around the George family. Father, make your presence so real, so real. Father, thank you for loving us enough to send your son and have Him die on the cross. Father, I ask that you will give the George family peace. May the Heaven’s rejoice as the gates are opened for a precious, precious lil girl.
Amen
Praying for you right now…
I have been out of blog world for a couple years, but I read yours faithfully during a lot of your battle with cancer. On facebook tonight I saw a friend’s post about a blogger Heather whose daughter Emma might be going to see Jesus soon. I hoped it wasn’t the same Heather.
I’m heartbroken for you, but also rejoicing for your sweet girl. Prayers for true comfort and peace.
Oh precious girl, I am praying for you and your family.
Praying for your family.
I just saw your twitter update now. Been praying and will continue to. Sending you much love.
“He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your fathers had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD” – Deuteronomy 8:3
Ah, Heather… you pointing to this one.
Manna. That stuff which literally means “What is it?”
God fed them “what is it?” in the wilderness. And it sustained them — that which they didn’t understand.
They ate the mystery.
God nourished them on what didn’t seem to have any meaning.
I am praying for you tonight, you holding your hands to the heaven and feeding on His manna, the mystery of that which we don’t understand. You feeding on the Word of Christ, the bread come straight down, to make sense of everything, the Christ who weeps with us, who suffers with us, whom we can worship, because He knows wounds, Jesus, the only God for us because He became one of us and knows the ache and pain of this world.
I ache with you tonight, Heather… eating the mystery of the manna with you… eating Christ’s Words, to make sense of the inexplicable… He knows… how He knows.
All, all my love… all… (((beautiful Heather)))
Ann
Saying prayers for all of you tonight.
I have no knowledge right now of what has happened. I came here for updates, and am now only reading the above comments and drowning in my unconfirmed guesses…..crying, speechless, affirming Ann’s “He knows,” but acknowledging in my sinful humanity, I don’t know…I don’t know why. I don’t know why now, but I do know HE loves you more than I can fathom and in the end HE WINS!
We love you, precious Heather. Hugging, crying, wondering….from a distance.
Praying for God to hold you and your family close in His loving arms tonight. My heart breaks with you.
love,
Dianne
I saw a Twitter update and I came here…praying for you…so sorry for your achy hearts…believing for His grace to wrap around you in miraculous ways tonight…
I’m so sorry Heather. I saw on Twitter your update and have been praying for your family.
I am so sorry. Prayers for you and your family.
We are so sorry, Heather and family. We are praying for you here in Arkansas. We love you.
Ann P.
Heather — I saw a note by Emily at Chatting At the Sky about how Emma was to go to heaven on Good Friday… and I just wanted you to know that I’m sending up prayers of comfort for you today… and will continue to do so. I’m so, so sorry.
{{HUGS}}
~MizB
IICor1:3-4
Heather- my dear family- I am so sorry. I know all to well some of what you are saying- how it is unbearable- you don’t know what to do- pepople just seem to stare at you…I want to be ther. She is perfect now whole- it’s us that have to live with this here- Let there be Grace. Emma Grace. My heart mourns with you- and I hope to rejoice with you soon- and with Emma one day.
Love with all my hert-
Marisa
*_*
I am so sorry. Praying for your family.
I am sorry. I’m praying for you.