I’ve dropped anchor in Your promises and I am holding on……
-Steven Curtis Chapman
Emma is now re-intubated. We are no closer to an answer than when we began this journey almost seven weeks ago…
But He is in control.
“He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your fathers had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD” – Deuteronomy 8:3
“Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.”
– I Corinthians 15:58
“No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead…” – Philippians 3:13
“And above all these put on love…And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts…And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly…with thankfulness in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.” – Colossians 3:14-17
The part that stuck out to me the most is Jesus’ response “If I can?“… How arrogant are we not to trust in our Creator.. I know that in these past 6+ weeks that we have been in ICU, I have doubted that He has a plan for all of this mess. I have been looking at the situation Emma is in and trying to fix it myself. I have in essence been saying that I “believe” He is in control, and He is “working all things out for Emma’s good”, but yet do I really believe that? Have I really given her, yet again, fully to Him?
He tells me to “Be still, and watch me at work”, yet I am constantly trying to solve all of this on my own. I am looking ahead at all of the “could be’s” and not what is here now.
In essence, I am trying to fix her..
Only He can fix her.
So, here I am Lord. I give her to you yet again. I am letting go of my “Isaac’s” hand and waiting for you to provide.
You are in control…