When I look back over my life, I wonder where You were when bad things happened to my family. I wonder where you were when my world collapsed underneath me.
Then I realize.
You were still on your throne.
You were still looking down.
You were still there.
You were still God.
And through all of the heartache, death, sadness, anger; I have lost sight of what really matters. I have forgotten that this all ends well for me and that Heaven stands as my reward. I have leaned less on Your promises and more on my own understanding, or lack thereof
I am learning that I really never knew anything. I am learning that lack of control equals growth. I am learning to trust You again. I am learning that You are still the same God that gave my precious daughter to me for 9+ years. I am learning that grief is something I really never really truly understood the way I do now.
I am learning that through it all… I never left Your hands.
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands