When I look back over my life, I wonder where You were when bad things happened to my family. I wonder where you were when my world collapsed underneath me.
Then I realize.
You were still on your throne.
You were still looking down.
You were still there.
You were still God.
And through all of the heartache, death, sadness, anger; I have lost sight of what really matters. I have forgotten that this all ends well for me and that Heaven stands as my reward. I have leaned less on Your promises and more on my own understanding, or lack thereof
I am learning that I really never knew anything. I am learning that lack of control equals growth. I am learning to trust You again. I am learning that You are still the same God that gave my precious daughter to me for 9+ years. I am learning that grief is something I really never really truly understood the way I do now.
I am learning that through it all… I never left Your hands.
Heavens stands
When my heart is breaking
I never leave Your hands
Marina says
September 17, 2011 at 1:43 pmThank you Heather. I needed that today. My granddaughter was waiting for a heart transplant and one of her nurses gave her an overdose of one of her medications. She went to be with Jesus a year ago on Monday. My heart is still breaking. Your blog is an encoruagement to me and I’m sure many others.
God Bless you,
Marina
Amy says
September 17, 2011 at 4:01 pmOh that was beautiful. Thanks for sharing!
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dear, hello, etc says
September 17, 2011 at 4:02 pmHeaven is waiting… this time on earth is but a moment. I’m so thankful we know that and have that to look forward to. Dancing with your daughter and Jesus, that is waiting for you.
Janelle
Reese says
September 17, 2011 at 5:37 pmNever heard of “JJ Heller,” but I will be finding more of her stuff. Thanks for sharing.
Praying for you, Heather. His Strength shines thru you; You are strong. xxx
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Mary @ Giving Up on Perfect says
September 17, 2011 at 8:05 pmAmen. (And I love that song. And this post.)
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Susan says
September 18, 2011 at 12:06 pmWonderful post Heather….do we ever really know all we need to know…..I really love your heart….
Angela Nazworth says
September 18, 2011 at 9:15 pmOh Heather … I so want to leap through this screen and hug you. Thank you for sharing your beautiful heart.
Jamie says
September 23, 2011 at 4:58 pmYour words gripped my heart today. So beautiful – you and your words!