It has been 7 months since I touched your skin and kissed your forehead.
It has been 7 months since I watched you sleep and counted your breaths.
It has been 7 months since I saw your blue eyes and ran my fingers through your hair.
It has been 7 months since I told you goodbye…
I have missed you every second of everyday, yet the missing is getting easier with time. The tears are slowly being turned into laughter, and the memories are being welcomed again.
I loved you so very much.
I did my best to do everything in my power to make your life as easy as possible. I have no regrets, I would do it all again if given the opportunity. Yet, I sometimes doubt your dads and my decision that day… I dream that you might have made it, because you always did. But then I remember that look in your eyes, as if saying “I am done..” and I know that we did the best thing for you by letting you go.
That was our goal, our promise to you; to make your life as easy and enjoyable for the time that God allowed us to have you. I hope we accomplished that goal in your eyes, and that you truly, deeply understood how indescribably loved you truly were.
I am re-learning life without you down here, but when I think about you up there…. I realize that I accomplished my goals for you and your life. I realize that you are where you were meant to be, and nothing on this earth could stop you from going there.
Not even my love.
I miss you baby girl….