to find the new me.
to find my new spot.
to find where I belong.
I am learning..
who I am again.
where I fit in again.
how to live again.
I am grieving..
for the lost time.
for the life that was lost.
for my life without her.
I am hopeful..
that I can find my new normal.
that I can be still and not weep.
that I can look up and know she is alright.
I am trusting..
that my God knows this better than I do.
that my God will lead me through this scattered mess.
that my God sees my heart, and knows my hurt.
That, my friends, is where I am right now.
I will turn their mourning into gladness.
I will give them comfort and joy instead of sorrow. –Jer 31:13